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Last night was unhappy. I had to write 2 pages in Spanish, something I can do easily, but I just couldn't start doing it. I feel slightly weird posting this on livejournal, but the main thing I was doing instead of working/sleeping... was checking out Livejournal. I already enjoy the idea and sense of community. Historically, I've had trouble continuing to do these things. I always think, "what's so interesting about my life that others would choose to read about it?" which is a good question but ultimately irrelevant. If my friends do read about my life, then that's great; if not, then I have a journal of what I was doing stored in a safe place. It's practically win-win!
...except for the sleep loss part. I remember a point where I thought,
1. I have to finish this before tomorrow morning,
2. I don't want to do this,
3. Perhaps I won't do it for some time,
4. It will take me some amount of time to do this,
5. Therefore, I shouldn't start yet because then it'll take even longer,
6. OH WAIT NO, that means I should start RIGHT NOW so as to finish as soon as possible,
7. Or maybe I could do it after this...
Repeat many times. Actually I don't really say "I" when I talk to myself: It's always "We". Like, "Henry, we will both feel much better when you finish this and go to sleep" or "OK Henry, We can do this, but I still need your help". Eventually I did finish, but I got in bed at 4:55 and had to wake up at 6:25. That's an hour and a half. And that's just unhappy.
I was actually hoping that I would be completely dead today in school, (so I would understand that I Just Can't do that again) but somehow I survived school, frisbee practice and going over to Tom's house without crashing or completely putting my foot in my mouth (well, just once). Thank you friends for giving me love and support and putting up with strange stuff I said. With last night in mind, I think I should go to bed.
...except for the sleep loss part. I remember a point where I thought,
1. I have to finish this before tomorrow morning,
2. I don't want to do this,
3. Perhaps I won't do it for some time,
4. It will take me some amount of time to do this,
5. Therefore, I shouldn't start yet because then it'll take even longer,
6. OH WAIT NO, that means I should start RIGHT NOW so as to finish as soon as possible,
7. Or maybe I could do it after this...
Repeat many times. Actually I don't really say "I" when I talk to myself: It's always "We". Like, "Henry, we will both feel much better when you finish this and go to sleep" or "OK Henry, We can do this, but I still need your help". Eventually I did finish, but I got in bed at 4:55 and had to wake up at 6:25. That's an hour and a half. And that's just unhappy.
I was actually hoping that I would be completely dead today in school, (so I would understand that I Just Can't do that again) but somehow I survived school, frisbee practice and going over to Tom's house without crashing or completely putting my foot in my mouth (well, just once). Thank you friends for giving me love and support and putting up with strange stuff I said. With last night in mind, I think I should go to bed.