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I'm jealous. Jealous of what i find myself asking; of everything.
I'm jealous of how well jameh writes or of how acomplished he is and how circulative he is.. is taht even a word? I know what i mean. Im jealous of how jessica talyor and sophie are soo good at art and how much stuff sucks compared to it. I'm jealous of the people who have the patience to just practise the paino and be good at it. I'm jealous of the people who remember an author or an arist and the names of the artwork wiether it be a song or a painting or a book et etc.
Infact im jealous of alot of people about alot of things. I just feel like the only thing i have that everyone seems to be jumping for is a steady relationship... which somehow ive landed with. But what do i have to show for who i am without my guy? S.O.D all.
i think what screws me up is i know i can be good i know i can do it, if only on concentrated a bit harder or took my time a bit more. For example ive got loads of top ideas for t shirts that i want in my wardrobe... but since leaving college i dont have a sewing machine and i dont have the money to buy one.... nor wud i know where to start because if anything i know nothing about textiles. ##
f888ing hell. its times liek this when i hate myself.
I'm jealous of how well jameh writes or of how acomplished he is and how circulative he is.. is taht even a word? I know what i mean. Im jealous of how jessica talyor and sophie are soo good at art and how much stuff sucks compared to it. I'm jealous of the people who have the patience to just practise the paino and be good at it. I'm jealous of the people who remember an author or an arist and the names of the artwork wiether it be a song or a painting or a book et etc.
Infact im jealous of alot of people about alot of things. I just feel like the only thing i have that everyone seems to be jumping for is a steady relationship... which somehow ive landed with. But what do i have to show for who i am without my guy? S.O.D all.
i think what screws me up is i know i can be good i know i can do it, if only on concentrated a bit harder or took my time a bit more. For example ive got loads of top ideas for t shirts that i want in my wardrobe... but since leaving college i dont have a sewing machine and i dont have the money to buy one.... nor wud i know where to start because if anything i know nothing about textiles. ##
f888ing hell. its times liek this when i hate myself.