oddness
I've calmed down from this morning. I needed that rush of good feelings though. The past two days have been up and down for me, and the down usually happens when I start missing David. I hope that he doesn't honestly hate me. I keep telling myself that it is impossible to hate the girl that he wanted to marry and to spend his life with. But I don't know if I believe it. I mean, if he hates me, then maybe he didn't really love me at all. Maybe the entire relationship was about Control. I know that most of it was, but I thought he loved me honestly. I just miss him. I don't think I'll love anyone like that again. Last night, I cried.
On another note, I have my tattoo picked out. It's a funky heart drawn by my best friend from early high school. I miss him too. *sigh*
Marsheena got her tattoo today. It's gorgeous. A heart with a "J" in it. It's on the back of her neck, and I had to hold her hands because it hurt. Then we went to a BBQ place and ate. The guy didn't take my order at first. Hey, white girls like BBQ too. Especially the fat ones. He he he.
Off to exercise now, and then I will see my lovely boyfriend tonight. Yay.
On another note, I have my tattoo picked out. It's a funky heart drawn by my best friend from early high school. I miss him too. *sigh*
Marsheena got her tattoo today. It's gorgeous. A heart with a "J" in it. It's on the back of her neck, and I had to hold her hands because it hurt. Then we went to a BBQ place and ate. The guy didn't take my order at first. Hey, white girls like BBQ too. Especially the fat ones. He he he.
Off to exercise now, and then I will see my lovely boyfriend tonight. Yay.