A picture of you in your birthday suit, You sat in the sun on a hot afternoon...
uhg. I just wanna be better. my throat hurts so bad that I havent had anything to eat today but asprin and some mac and cheesy to swallow my pill thats supposed to make everything stop hurting. I'm cold, I'm hot, I'm crying, I'm starving, I'm scared, I'm worried, I'm so goddamn tired.
I've never felt such warm tears fall from my eyes before and it fucking burns because my face, hands and feet are freezing but the rest of my body is on fire and I look like a fuckin freak because I'm not just sickely pale but I'm broken out on 90% of my body and it hurts. my goddamn doctor says she hasnt seen anything this bad and she's been in medacine for awhile and she is surprised I'm taking it so well but I'm not. I'm thinking about going into my underwear drawer and finding the Percatin I didnt finish from when I had my wisdom teeth take out and just take one in hopes that I stop hurting and I could get some goddamn sleep.
I cant work for a fuckin week because I look so horrible and the parents would be scared and Danielle is so nice for being okay with it but that means I'm not making any money. I figured in my head that with all the classes I'm teaching I'm working 9 hours a week. 9 times 7.20. that's like 64 bucks a week not including goddamn taxes they take out. thats enough to start paying back my parents for my stupid car I just bought but since I'm not working and completely clueless on how thigns work I'm not getting that great of a start.
two people just called in the past 3 minutes about buying Steven and I know when they drive it theyre gonna think we're crazy for trying to sell it and no one will buy it.
I dont know how I'm gonna get fuckin caught up in school. missing two days in a week and maybe tomorrow because it just hurts so bad. the quarter ends soon. I go to seattle soon, I'm not even over my goddamn fear of planes yet even though this is a fucking amazing oppurtunity.
I just wanna stop being so goddamn uncomfortable.
I've never felt such warm tears fall from my eyes before and it fucking burns because my face, hands and feet are freezing but the rest of my body is on fire and I look like a fuckin freak because I'm not just sickely pale but I'm broken out on 90% of my body and it hurts. my goddamn doctor says she hasnt seen anything this bad and she's been in medacine for awhile and she is surprised I'm taking it so well but I'm not. I'm thinking about going into my underwear drawer and finding the Percatin I didnt finish from when I had my wisdom teeth take out and just take one in hopes that I stop hurting and I could get some goddamn sleep.
I cant work for a fuckin week because I look so horrible and the parents would be scared and Danielle is so nice for being okay with it but that means I'm not making any money. I figured in my head that with all the classes I'm teaching I'm working 9 hours a week. 9 times 7.20. that's like 64 bucks a week not including goddamn taxes they take out. thats enough to start paying back my parents for my stupid car I just bought but since I'm not working and completely clueless on how thigns work I'm not getting that great of a start.
two people just called in the past 3 minutes about buying Steven and I know when they drive it theyre gonna think we're crazy for trying to sell it and no one will buy it.
I dont know how I'm gonna get fuckin caught up in school. missing two days in a week and maybe tomorrow because it just hurts so bad. the quarter ends soon. I go to seattle soon, I'm not even over my goddamn fear of planes yet even though this is a fucking amazing oppurtunity.
I just wanna stop being so goddamn uncomfortable.