Yeah if only I can find a lonely kid too...
I'm home from school because I have strep. I held out as long as I could before I told my mom that my throat hurt. I thought I could just get over it but mom always says if we dont catch strep then it could do some harm to my kidneys or something. I dont know.
I havent been sleeping well this week. I wake up every hour from a weird dream or nightmare. it's hard to go to school like that. scared and sleepy.
I'm kind of glad I stayed home today. I needed a day off more than anything. a day just for me. Lately all I fucking do is go over thousands and thousands of memories in my head of things that make me embarrassed or that make me feel bad for doing something a long time ago.
I read a story for english about a boat and I spaced out and thought of Australia and I could still feel how lonely I was and how much I missed things. It was like I was back there and it all hurt again. I'm not gonna lie I had an amazing time there and it was a once in a life time experience ya know? but, when I think of how I'd try so hard to get on a computer or phone to call people and how much it hurt when no one was there or there wasnt a computer or phone or money for me to use. all this just got me scared of flying and seattle is soon. real soon.
I go to the doctor in like...10 minutes. fuck.
work's been okay. I went to training last night which was basically pointless, but I got paid for two hours of sitting around a pool. but I work again tonight and I think I'm a little more prepared than I was tuesday. little more structured. so I guess training last night was good for something.
Ryan works today. I'm so happy for him. seems like a lot of good stuff is goin for him. :)
come on now
I think you know what I'm trying to say woman
do ya do ya want my love?
I havent been sleeping well this week. I wake up every hour from a weird dream or nightmare. it's hard to go to school like that. scared and sleepy.
I'm kind of glad I stayed home today. I needed a day off more than anything. a day just for me. Lately all I fucking do is go over thousands and thousands of memories in my head of things that make me embarrassed or that make me feel bad for doing something a long time ago.
I read a story for english about a boat and I spaced out and thought of Australia and I could still feel how lonely I was and how much I missed things. It was like I was back there and it all hurt again. I'm not gonna lie I had an amazing time there and it was a once in a life time experience ya know? but, when I think of how I'd try so hard to get on a computer or phone to call people and how much it hurt when no one was there or there wasnt a computer or phone or money for me to use. all this just got me scared of flying and seattle is soon. real soon.
I go to the doctor in like...10 minutes. fuck.
work's been okay. I went to training last night which was basically pointless, but I got paid for two hours of sitting around a pool. but I work again tonight and I think I'm a little more prepared than I was tuesday. little more structured. so I guess training last night was good for something.
Ryan works today. I'm so happy for him. seems like a lot of good stuff is goin for him. :)
come on now
I think you know what I'm trying to say woman
do ya do ya want my love?