hip-hip hooray for me
i have a game today, wooo, dotn even bother going, im not even posting game times and dates anymore, thats how much i give a shit...my day started out ok, i woke up, got dressed, washed my hair, put in my contacts, and got to school ON TIME, holy effin shit, on time? wtf!?!? im always late, but thats besides the point, i got to english, fell asleep a couple times, got to spanish, and i ALWAYS listen to music in the computer lab, so ms chavarria was like no internet! and i just had the pure voluem thing changing the sogn when i had to, and she made me get off the computer and do nothnig for the rest of the period, thats when it all started, see when i get pissed off, i get depressed, and well, it lasted till about 3 or 4 hours later, i still feel like complete shit, but its a little better, and when i say a little, i mean a little, durign lunch, i went and sat by myself for liek 20 minutes, before i got aggrivataed about people askign me what was wrong....the rest of the day was ok i guess, and now im here...im kinda worried because i dotn really remember too much from last nights convo with jenn, just thats she was yelling at me for something i think, i really dotn remember, that and she could barely talk, so thats been on my mind too, plus ohter things that have been going on, i know you dotn wanan talk to me, i really dont care, i just feel like running off, and seeign how life would be so much better for everyone, and either your laughign at how pathetic i am, or saying no it would be horrible your just sayign that, but when i get depressed, its like theres a voice in my head that tells me not to listen to anybody, that they all really dont like me, and just are there, and i know its nto true, but when you hear it all day, you have no choice but to give in..if you only knew the thoughts ive been thinking, sorry i wasted your time again, ima stop while im ahead, before i make it worse...