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well, allow me to speak vaguely for a moment...
its been so long that i hardly recognise the feeling. Its like a toxin that makes you shiver warmly all over, and clouds your judgement and ability to sound like a competent conversationalist. Im constantly finding myself in swings of jealousy and suspicion, even of people whom (im ashamed to say it) i really shouldnt have a need to worry about, fears of rejection or misunderstanding, and of absolutely pure smitten-ness. I think about the next time ill get to meet them again, plan what will happen, until the time comes and im at a complete loss for words. This is not reasurring for 2 reasons; it does not help increase the potential for a relationship to even start, and secondly, and more importantly, makes me fear that the attraction is a purely physical thing; i read somewhere that you should marry someone whom you enjoy talking to....not that marriage is really the subtext, but the implication that i may not be with someone who i like or can easily talk to does worry me some.
but all the same, i like feeling good again.
its been so long that i hardly recognise the feeling. Its like a toxin that makes you shiver warmly all over, and clouds your judgement and ability to sound like a competent conversationalist. Im constantly finding myself in swings of jealousy and suspicion, even of people whom (im ashamed to say it) i really shouldnt have a need to worry about, fears of rejection or misunderstanding, and of absolutely pure smitten-ness. I think about the next time ill get to meet them again, plan what will happen, until the time comes and im at a complete loss for words. This is not reasurring for 2 reasons; it does not help increase the potential for a relationship to even start, and secondly, and more importantly, makes me fear that the attraction is a purely physical thing; i read somewhere that you should marry someone whom you enjoy talking to....not that marriage is really the subtext, but the implication that i may not be with someone who i like or can easily talk to does worry me some.
but all the same, i like feeling good again.