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Why am I wanting to be alone
Wanting everyone to get away from me
And getting mad that I'm alone
Because I want you to want me?
The alternative to life is keeping me alive
The alternative to death is killing me inside.
--Just wrote that just now. Sort of....what I'm feeling like.
So, I wake up. plus. I get ready, I look cute, straighten my hair. plus. I figure out a way to get my car started plus. I call the loan place. I'm not getting a loan. negative. I get to work. negative. I forgot my lunch. negative. I starve. negative. I cry because of no food, something is wrong with....my birth control because I'm pretty sure 10 days is too MUCH, I have no one to cry to, no boyfriend, I'm not alone but I kind of am and kind of want to be AND NO CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I'm going in the opposite direction of my faith, and it scares me. I just want to scream. Oh....and my dad is a complete asshole who should die :) Those of you who know my dad and how he treats me would agree.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
So, yesterday was a good day. Read about it in Erika and Eric's LJs. Yeah.....bye
Jenna
Wanting everyone to get away from me
And getting mad that I'm alone
Because I want you to want me?
The alternative to life is keeping me alive
The alternative to death is killing me inside.
--Just wrote that just now. Sort of....what I'm feeling like.
So, I wake up. plus. I get ready, I look cute, straighten my hair. plus. I figure out a way to get my car started plus. I call the loan place. I'm not getting a loan. negative. I get to work. negative. I forgot my lunch. negative. I starve. negative. I cry because of no food, something is wrong with....my birth control because I'm pretty sure 10 days is too MUCH, I have no one to cry to, no boyfriend, I'm not alone but I kind of am and kind of want to be AND NO CAR!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! AHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!! I'm going in the opposite direction of my faith, and it scares me. I just want to scream. Oh....and my dad is a complete asshole who should die :) Those of you who know my dad and how he treats me would agree.
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH
So, yesterday was a good day. Read about it in Erika and Eric's LJs. Yeah.....bye
Jenna