They made me blind but I can see the loaded gun behind you.

[notamistake]

Turns out Alyx wasn't really fuckin' around when she said I had a Mustang waitin' for me in the parking garage. Found it easy enough cause it was the only Mustang in the executive part of the garage. Did that make me an executive too? Or just the executive's bitch? Well, since I left my law degree back in prison guess that made me the bitch.

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[notamistake]

I guess she had a point with that whole thing. The more you know, the more you can throw people off their guard. Guess Alyx and Angelus had that talent down to a science which was why they were always winning everything. I sighed just thinkin' about it. Unneeded air. Was I ever gonna get used to that? I followed her into the living room and hung back near the door, listening to her go on and on. Honestly listening to her was kind've okay because I had no one else to really talk to anyway. I was startin' to need more of her and that was when I was startin' to understand just exactly what she wanted from me.

She wanted to bring Angelus back? Somehow I didn't honestly believe that but I did believe that she knew saying his name got under my skin and that was what she wanted to do. For someone who wanted an obediant little helper she really liked to test my limits. Almost like she wanted me to misbehave so she could punish me over and over again. So I'd never forget just who was in charge here. I wasn't afraid that she'd bring Angelus back. I was jsut afraid she'd never let his memory die.

My eyes moved to the screen when I saw a familiar figure. Me. Did the bitch have cameras every fucking where? Seriously! It was like she was this giant pervert who got off on spyin' on us all the time. I didn't wanna watch this. I already remembered it way too well.

I turned away but just as I did she grabbed my arm and pulled me onto the couch with her, her arm locking around my shoulders and holding me in place. Forcing me to watch my own death scene. What the fuck was this all about? She get off on that shit? Make her all hot cause she had the power? I really really hated her. Words couldn't describe how much I hated her but in the grand scheme of things this wasn't the worst thing she could be making me watch.

"Is that what you want from me? You want me to be like him?" I asked her quietly.

[alyx_d]

I could feel how uncomfortable she was watching this and I can't say I blame her but she has made her own bed and now laying in it? Prerequisite. I heard her quiet words dance up into my ear and I paused the scene and turned myself to face her, brushing hair from her face and smiling mildly at her. She really thought I wanted her to be like him? Oh no that was the furthest thought in my mind. I just wanted to make her like she was supposed to be, supposed to be before Buffy Fucking Summers and Angel reformed her.

"No baby I don't want you to be like him. I want you to be like you. I want you to really grasp the level of power you have deep down inside. The power that this super geek squad has been trying to pummel out of you for the last few years. You're stronger than them all Faith and until you realize that, you're going to be nothing." I leaned forward and kissed her head before getting up and removing the DVD from the player, snapping it in half and depositing the broken bits in her hands. I walked down the hallway toward my room and changed, not surprised to find Faith standing at the foot of my bed as I came out of the bathroom.

"I have such plans for you." I smiled and sat down on the edge of my bed curling my feet up under me and glancing at her. "Such glorious plans and if you play nice I think you'll be more than happy with the way things turn out. Fight me Faith and you'll know pain. Know. Wear. Feel." I patted the bed beside me and waited yet again to see her make her decisions, see if she was going to lay in the bed she made.

[notamistake]

Now I was beginning to understand. She didn't want me to be like Angelus, she just wanted me to get in touch with the inner crazy bitch. The one that I'd successfully strangled to death crying in Angel's arms in a rainy alleyway and then sittin' in a prison cell for years. I'd killed that girl, and even though I remembered her I could barely remember what it felt like to be her. To follow through with every impulse. It was the most miserable time of my life and she wanted me to go back to it. She really was just like him.

She finally stopped the DVD and put it in my hands after breakin' it before walkin' off. Quickly I tossed it in the garbage even though I knew it was nothin' but a gesture. She probably had dozens of copies of this DVD at the office along with a library of shit on me and the rest of the gang. More head games. Fucking great.

I walked into her bedroom cause I had the sense that she wanted me to and I stopped at the foot of her bed, my head turnin' as she walked out of the bathroom. Plans. Right.

I sat down next to her when she patted the bed, not sure of what else I was supposed to be doing other than whatever she told me to do. I didn't wanna know what those plans were but until I could figure out how to stop the crazy bitch? I was pretty much stuck just playin' nice. I knew she was lying though. If I played nice I still wouldn't be happy with the way things turn out. Alyx hadn't really boned up on her Faith history after all.

Cause psycho evil Faith? Hated to be number two.

[x_evilbritney_x]

What a fucking crock, I swear! That gross girl and that blonde vampire? So on the top of my fucking kill and torture list. The fact that I had to call a cab of ALL things was going to piss Alyx off because then she'd know that something happened to the fucking car. I was going to get it from Alyx about something, I knew it, I could feel it. Tonight was the night that everyone was going to come down on me, I knew it.

The cab dropped me off and I headed inside, slamming the door and going upstairs to my room, slamming that door as well. Quickly, I stripped out of my clothes and started the shower, getting in and washing myself, shuddering at the fact that I so got fucking puked on! That little bitch, I swear.

When I was done, I got up, wrapping up in my robe and putting my hair up in a towel before going back downstairs and to the kitchen to fix myself a drink. I was surprised that Alyx didn't come up when she heard me and I figured it was because Faith was here. Ever since we came to LA it was all about Faith. Alyx just pushed me aside and ... whatever. I'd just put a smile on my face and hope that Alyx wasn't pissed at me for anything. I walked into her room with my glass of gin and saw them both on the bed.

"Hey," I said and gave Faith a look before coming up and sitting down on the other side.

[alyx_d]

I smiled as Faith sat on the bed and I reached for my silver box carefully pulling out a joint and lighting it up. I was in the middle of handing it to Faith when Britney just strolled into my room like it was no big deal. How quickly my baby forgets her little mishaps, this one though wasn't so little. She'd let Faith out of the cage and that was a very, very bad thing to do. I glanced at her and tipped my head curiously at her when she plopped on the bed beside us. Faith's fingertips pulled the joint from between my fingers and she took in a huge drag causing me to laugh.

"You probably want to be stoned for this actually." I winked at her and turned my attention back to Britney. "Britney honey sweetie baby sugar doll what are you doing here? I mean call me silly but I figured after letting Mommy's little toy out of her cage, you wouldn't be back here anytime this century." I gently pulled the joint from between Faith's lips and took a drag before stubbing it out, small jolts of blue energy crackling angrily from my fingertips as I did.

"You have some explaining to do and I suggest you talk fast because my patience tonight? A lil bit short baby doll." I leaned back leisurely with my eyes fixed on her waiting my explanation which I knew would be sad. She'd done it and she knew it now let's just see how long she tries to back peddle out of this mess.

[notamistake]

She was puttin' the joint out already? I'd barely even got a hit on it and here came Barbie the Vampire wannabe, swaggering in like she'd just had the night of her life and ploppin' down on Alyx's bed like she owned the place. I still remembered her from the night she let me out of that cage still standing ominously in the corner of Alyx's room. I guess Alyx remembered it too cause she looked all kinds of pissed.

Glancing down I noticed the little blue crackles comin' from Alyx's hands. Borrowed power. I knew because I'd borrowed it before. I wondered if I could have the same effect now that I was essentially dead. All I had to do to test that theory was piss Alyx off enough to nearly beat me to death and then smooch her. Usually that was how it worked and maybe I'd test that another night. For now I'd just lay back and watch Britney get her ass kicked.

Scooting back in bed, I rested against the bedpost and just decided to stay the fuck outta this one. No way was I gonna take a beating for this bitch. Even though I had the feeling Britney was the kinda chick who would turn it around on me.

[x_evilbritney_x]

Well, I could tell that Alyx didn't want me here and I had a feeling I knew why. She knew that I took Faith out of the cage, but really it was only because it was always about Faith now. It used to be about me and now it wasn't. Why did she waste her time on her anyway? She wasn't anything, not anymore. But, I couldn't say that because that would mean that well ... I wouldn't be here anymore.

"So, I guess you are mad," I sighed and got up, knowing full and well that I should actually leave the room. I saw her hands and I didn't want to stick around for that. I saw the look on Faith's face, from anyone else's point of view, it would look like she wasn't being smug, but to me? She was and I wanted to rip her face off. I hated her and this night and I should have stayed with Justin, but of course, I didn't. Why don't I ever think things through?

"Well, you already know. Yeah, I let her out. I'm sorry ..." I started and then stopped because it wouldn't really matter if I said I was sorry.

But, I was. Instead, I should have ripped her head off. Oh if I could take things fucking back.

[alyx_d]

I watched as she got up off the bed with her melancholy self and half hearted apologies that stopped at go. She stood there glancing at Faith like she wanted to rip her limb from limb and knowing she'd never get that chance, not so long as I was around. If anyone was going to rip Faith limb from limb it would be me. Speaking of Faith, she was not a part of the bed frame she was pressed against it so hard.

"Britney baby, come here." I pointed to a spot on the floor and set my feet on the floor waiting for her to come to me. She hesitated for a moment and then came over glancing at her hands and avoiding my eyes. I gently took her hands and gripped them hard enough for energy to twist up her arms, dropping her to her knees in pain in front of me. I let go of one hand and gently brushed a few stray strands of hair from her eyes.

"You do remember your place don't you, your significance in what we are here to do, don't you baby? Do I need to remind you just how important you are and that you need to stop making stupid decisions and dating loser boys?" I ran my hand through her hair and leaned down kissing her forehead softly. "You want to be a good girl don't you? Then do something for me, I need you to collect a package for me. You think you can handle that?"

She nodded and I leaned down whispering so softly only she would hear, telling her exactly what I wanted her to retrieve. Or should I say who I wanted her to retrieve. She looked at me with wide eyes before grinning and nodding her head. I kissed her forehead again and leaned back in bed beside Faith, pulling out another joint.

[x_evilbritney_x]

The pain that shot through my fucking body was intolerable and I screamed in pain, shutting my eyes because if I shut my eyes then that meant that no one could see me. I couldn't see, why should they? I didn't want that Faith girl to see me like this because I was supposed to be better than her, but Alyx constantly made it seem like she was better than me. I was just waiting for Alyx to off me so Faith could take my place, but I would fucking kill Faith before that even happened. Well, she was already fucking dead, but I'd do something ...

I nodded my head when Alyx asked if I could collect a package and hell yes, I could. Anything to get me out of this room. She leaned in close and I grinned as I looked at Faith because this? This was going to be so fucking good I could almost taste the success that was on my tongue. This was going to be good.

She kissed my forehead and I smiled at her, standing up suddenly and I wanted so badly to even smoke with her, but that wasn't going to happen. Instead I just waved and said goodbye before walking out the door so I could go upstairs and get dressed.

Then? I'd retrieve the package that she wanted.