hm.
i'm very happy with my schedule, its perfect. journalism first period and english last. i start the day out good and end it good.
i got my shot yesterday haha clarissa and alec were with me, i made clarissa hold my hand. the lady was mean, after everything was done she said " okay party's over bye"
it's kind of pathetic when you're jealous of some of your best and good friends. i wish i wasn't jealous.
haha lunch today was kind of awkward, its clarissa and alec, then danielle and joey, and then me and julio, everyone is all huggy and cuddling except for me and julio and there really isnt much to say? he just seems shy and i need to break that because sitting there in silence of just hearing the chewing of food is getting annoying.
those kind of people where when they say something and you dont know whether its a joke or they're being serious are confusing.
So me and candice are sitting down on the couch and talking and she says
" what names did corey call kirsten?
and i pause and i said
" well there were many names but i dont think i can repeat them."
so she says
" well what reasons or why did he break up with her"
and i pause and look at the television trying to think, and i look at her and say.
" because she never talked to him and stuff like that i think"
and she gives me this look.
and i'm thinking.
and i started jumping up and down and i say
"he broke up with kirsten cus she never talked but i talked to him and called him and he said i called to much?! and if he wanted someone to talk to him then why didn't he talk as well?!"
i was super mad, and i ran around and out of the house confused and angry and so my conclusion is, i don't get it at all. what does he want, someone that talks and is there or someone who is quiet. i was very upset so i ended up walking in the heat to clarissas. i dont understand? ugh. i still care. and sometimes i hate it so much but i know that since i'm still sad and emotions like that , that every word i said to him i meant and i'd really take nothing back. bulldog camp on friday, i'll see him for the first time since, i think i'll act like a regular beonka. happy, fun, funny and hyper and such?