Very hostile...and Broken....
...thats how i feel at this very moment. I dont feel right. Something is missing and its out of place. I know that I should be the one to find it or fix it. But at the same time I just feel like screaming, "wont someone come and fix me?!!!" Thats unlike me due to the fact that I take care of everyone else and not the other way around. But at this very moment, I feel that I was put on a path that was set to lead no where. Im not sure why I'm feeling this way, but I must say, its about damn time!
I've always been concerned with everyone else. Making sure that they are happy and that they are taken care of. And in doing this, I never took the time to care for me. I guess in my own way, I kinda figured that someone was going to come along and help me with that. But I was wrong. No one came, so i just kinda forgot about me.
The issue that is bothering me now is this: Id give the shirt off of my back for some of the ppl I care about. And I have (literally). I do this with the mind set of not wanting anything in return. I dont cause drama, and I love to make ppl happy. I do my part as a human being in this world to earn my keep, (and some). So for the most part, I believe im a good person. I dont live my life with regrets and i wont. So in saying this, i ask one simple question. "Why the Fuck do I have to be the one that is calm, cool, and get fucked over all the time???" Its true what they say, "Nice guys finish last..." So does this mean that in order for me to have the kind of love that i deserve, i have to be a bitch? Well fuck that! I dont even think so. Im not going to lower my IQ by acting like you fuck tards that have no soul. And you know who you are! Im a nice person, i really am. If you are my friend, and i say true friend, then you know that i have the biggest heart and love you to death. But dont get me wrong, I can be Satan as well. If you fuck me over...I WILL go out of my way to make your life hell. And i have no proublem doing this.
So i say this to all now. If you think you can fuck me over and lie to me...then FUCK OFF AND DIE!!! Im not having this shit anymore. And those of you who only know me bc of the band...then you to can FUCK OFF AND DIE!! you are a waste of breathe and human life. Get a clue and fuck off!
This is harsh, yes it is. But its something that i need to say. And seeing how this is MY LJ, i think i can do that! As you can see, ive had a really bad day. Im tired and sick so all you fuckers out there,(once again you know who you are) FUCK OFF AND DIE!!! YOU'RE GOING TO BURN IN HELL SO LEAVE ME ALONE!!
FUCK OFF!!!
I've always been concerned with everyone else. Making sure that they are happy and that they are taken care of. And in doing this, I never took the time to care for me. I guess in my own way, I kinda figured that someone was going to come along and help me with that. But I was wrong. No one came, so i just kinda forgot about me.
The issue that is bothering me now is this: Id give the shirt off of my back for some of the ppl I care about. And I have (literally). I do this with the mind set of not wanting anything in return. I dont cause drama, and I love to make ppl happy. I do my part as a human being in this world to earn my keep, (and some). So for the most part, I believe im a good person. I dont live my life with regrets and i wont. So in saying this, i ask one simple question. "Why the Fuck do I have to be the one that is calm, cool, and get fucked over all the time???" Its true what they say, "Nice guys finish last..." So does this mean that in order for me to have the kind of love that i deserve, i have to be a bitch? Well fuck that! I dont even think so. Im not going to lower my IQ by acting like you fuck tards that have no soul. And you know who you are! Im a nice person, i really am. If you are my friend, and i say true friend, then you know that i have the biggest heart and love you to death. But dont get me wrong, I can be Satan as well. If you fuck me over...I WILL go out of my way to make your life hell. And i have no proublem doing this.
So i say this to all now. If you think you can fuck me over and lie to me...then FUCK OFF AND DIE!!! Im not having this shit anymore. And those of you who only know me bc of the band...then you to can FUCK OFF AND DIE!! you are a waste of breathe and human life. Get a clue and fuck off!
This is harsh, yes it is. But its something that i need to say. And seeing how this is MY LJ, i think i can do that! As you can see, ive had a really bad day. Im tired and sick so all you fuckers out there,(once again you know who you are) FUCK OFF AND DIE!!! YOU'RE GOING TO BURN IN HELL SO LEAVE ME ALONE!!
FUCK OFF!!!