what is going on with me?
So I'm done with college in literally a day well 3 tomorrow. I'm mot sure how I feel about that...it wasn't hard..actually it was fuckin boring. But the latest thing I've noticed is that I just don't feel connections with people. There's this girl I like but for some reason my brain gets the message but my heart doesn't listen. I cannot figure out why this is happening. Her name is alexa she's short and blonde, been through some stuff, but overall she's sweetheart. She's nothing but nice to me but she can have an attitude with other people. She just turned 20 a few weeks ago.
I have no idea why I can't feel the way I felt about trish towards alexa..besides the fact that I haven't known her as long and the bs. But I don't have that feeling ( you know that feeling you can't explain its just there). I can't figure it out. Since I'm moving home soon I don't really know whether to really pursue her or not but she says she'll visit everychance she get...which will be a few weekend in january and feb. Till she gets sick of driving. But either way that feeling of not feeling it bothers me 2 no end.
Sometimes I think she's leading me on because I show interest in her and I'm around. She's always txting guys from home when I'm over idc about it at the time but when I'm thinking about stuff later. It drives me crazy...like yea u have guy friends and shit but it seems like all she talks 2 is guys.... Maybe I'm dumb for feeling like this but I can't help it. Sometimes I really do just wanna drive off and see where I end up.
I have no idea why I can't feel the way I felt about trish towards alexa..besides the fact that I haven't known her as long and the bs. But I don't have that feeling ( you know that feeling you can't explain its just there). I can't figure it out. Since I'm moving home soon I don't really know whether to really pursue her or not but she says she'll visit everychance she get...which will be a few weekend in january and feb. Till she gets sick of driving. But either way that feeling of not feeling it bothers me 2 no end.
Sometimes I think she's leading me on because I show interest in her and I'm around. She's always txting guys from home when I'm over idc about it at the time but when I'm thinking about stuff later. It drives me crazy...like yea u have guy friends and shit but it seems like all she talks 2 is guys.... Maybe I'm dumb for feeling like this but I can't help it. Sometimes I really do just wanna drive off and see where I end up.