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I don't know what has gotten in to me. But I am being really unfair to person and I am letting things get to me. Yes I was looking forward to hanging out, but he hangs out with me all the time and he obviousely will want to hang out with them instead. I don't know. I'm getting really nervous and territorial, I guess you could say. I am thinking more and more about how I could lose him these days and wanting to spend time with him all the time. And whenever the slightest mention of someone being hot I freak. I wish all other girls would just go away, I don't know how girls are s'posed to keep their boyfriends when so many other girls are so beautiful. Doesn't that sound ridiculous? ahhhh. maybe it's just a short little phase. I hope so. I'm letting that fact that he has a lot of femal friends and barely any guy friends really get to me too. Esp when they hang out. I wish it didn't have to be like that. I don't know what my problem is. I'm just babbling on. the whole thing makes me sick--isn't that sad? I'm terrible. I'm sorry. I think part of my problem is understanding that you have a lot of friends I don't know. All the people I hang out with anymore are from school, and you know them. I have no other life anymore. And I certainly don't hang out with any other guys. My life is so boring. I need to make new friends. I need to hang out with people not from school sometime, but then again, I don't have friends outside of school. Cuz the people I do know are idiots. bleh. goodnight all.