::sigh::
there are so many sighs....the first sighs I didnt want to believe. I told myself that I was just worring to much, but after last night I dont know. I held back my tears. I didnt let him know how much he hurt me.
in other news...
we went to six flags and daniels brother came along. i dont like his brother at all. but the whole day he kept pointing out all my flaws...every single one of them. as if socity doesnt put enough pressuer on us girls to be perfect looking like the modles in the magizianes. apparetly you cant be as fat as me and not be pregnet. his brother was conviced that I have to be pregent in order to be that fat.
I know everyone says if your not happy with your self dont sit and complane get up and do something. well I'm sure i'm not the only girl in the world that knows how hard it is to lose weight. I have tried everything...dieting, diet pills, excercing, not eating at all. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! I hate myself body so much....even you know daniel tells me that I'm beauitful...I dont feel beautiful...
in other news...
we went to six flags and daniels brother came along. i dont like his brother at all. but the whole day he kept pointing out all my flaws...every single one of them. as if socity doesnt put enough pressuer on us girls to be perfect looking like the modles in the magizianes. apparetly you cant be as fat as me and not be pregnet. his brother was conviced that I have to be pregent in order to be that fat.
I know everyone says if your not happy with your self dont sit and complane get up and do something. well I'm sure i'm not the only girl in the world that knows how hard it is to lose weight. I have tried everything...dieting, diet pills, excercing, not eating at all. I DONT KNOW WHAT TO DO!!! I hate myself body so much....even you know daniel tells me that I'm beauitful...I dont feel beautiful...