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Today has been a day, all kinds of sadness swirling through my head from the first moment of conciousness, lost love, lost opportunity, lost... ness.
Existence is so intense, I gotta dumb it down to keep from being overcome. There's so much going on all around and inside, invisible connections, all dumbed down to create the mask through which my perception stares back at me. I feel derailed, maintaining speed, and narrowly escaping some kind of sad destiny. I balance two plains. When the balance tips, one way, I become comatose; and the other, I cease to exist. When I go, I don't want to be remembered, though should I return, I'd take comfort in a warm welcome.
Anyways, I almost ended up going to Nevada City for the weekend, but I opted to stay. I hadn't any compelling reasons to stay or go, but Ryan came down, and we are to visit friends of his in Long Beach this evening.
Existence is so intense, I gotta dumb it down to keep from being overcome. There's so much going on all around and inside, invisible connections, all dumbed down to create the mask through which my perception stares back at me. I feel derailed, maintaining speed, and narrowly escaping some kind of sad destiny. I balance two plains. When the balance tips, one way, I become comatose; and the other, I cease to exist. When I go, I don't want to be remembered, though should I return, I'd take comfort in a warm welcome.
Anyways, I almost ended up going to Nevada City for the weekend, but I opted to stay. I hadn't any compelling reasons to stay or go, but Ryan came down, and we are to visit friends of his in Long Beach this evening.