2010
so I'm sitting here at work, it's early and this is typically when I have the time to actually sit down and think. maybe it's because it's so quiet in here. all that is around me really is the soft, almost calming, humming of these printers.
this year I'm really going to try and better myself. when people asked me what I wanted for christmas I told them to get me more 'grown up' looking stuff. nice clothes and such. I really need it. Part of me knows very well that it is time to grow up and realize just how quickly the real world is upon me but the other half just wants to run away. I have two and half years left of school and then it's time to get a decent paying job (I have major doubts if I'll even find one). I haven't even begun looking at internships and though I love my major, the more I get into it the more I fear that I'll be working in some underpaid factory for the rest of my life. I don't have a high standard of living but there is a certain way that I wish to live and I certainly don't want to be living paycheck to paycheck, always worried about money. that's no way to live.
I'm not one for new year resolutions because to be quite frank, no one ever follows them, especially me. I set goals all the time and none of them get accomplished so just because there is a new year upon us doesn't make it any different really. but this year... I want to strive towards something. there are so many things that I simply need to do, to better myself....for myself. I've already taken a couple of baby steps, and I do mean baby steps, with getting my pump and eating healthier but I don't think it's enough. maybe if I think of them as required and not goals they will get accomplished...
so this year is going to be all about being better. this year will involve better grades, positive attitudes, having fun, getting healthier and taking care of myself, working harder at everything I do, being more creative whether it be through writing or photography, and making sure that those in my life know that they are needed.
the world isn't going to end in 2012 but sometimes I fear that I will if I do not make some changes.
wish me luck.
this year I'm really going to try and better myself. when people asked me what I wanted for christmas I told them to get me more 'grown up' looking stuff. nice clothes and such. I really need it. Part of me knows very well that it is time to grow up and realize just how quickly the real world is upon me but the other half just wants to run away. I have two and half years left of school and then it's time to get a decent paying job (I have major doubts if I'll even find one). I haven't even begun looking at internships and though I love my major, the more I get into it the more I fear that I'll be working in some underpaid factory for the rest of my life. I don't have a high standard of living but there is a certain way that I wish to live and I certainly don't want to be living paycheck to paycheck, always worried about money. that's no way to live.
I'm not one for new year resolutions because to be quite frank, no one ever follows them, especially me. I set goals all the time and none of them get accomplished so just because there is a new year upon us doesn't make it any different really. but this year... I want to strive towards something. there are so many things that I simply need to do, to better myself....for myself. I've already taken a couple of baby steps, and I do mean baby steps, with getting my pump and eating healthier but I don't think it's enough. maybe if I think of them as required and not goals they will get accomplished...
so this year is going to be all about being better. this year will involve better grades, positive attitudes, having fun, getting healthier and taking care of myself, working harder at everything I do, being more creative whether it be through writing or photography, and making sure that those in my life know that they are needed.
the world isn't going to end in 2012 but sometimes I fear that I will if I do not make some changes.
wish me luck.