oh LJ come to my rescue
[If I ever, If I never. Make me understand the thought whatever, Make me see. Make me be. Make me understand you're there for me]
my mind is swimming...
heard from someone today that i haven't heard from since i left for school. didn't call or anything just text but still contact no less.
you asked me how i was going. told me you were checking up on me. why? how come all of a sudden you care? i know things about you that you have not told me. i should be checking up on you. i mean what the hell happened to you? you lie, drink too much, drop out of school, leave behind those people that are good for you, manipulate people....that's not the person that i met. was it not obvious that you were one of my best friends and that i cared?
*sigh* but no matter how much you hurt disapointed me i still can't let that be the last of it. and it's ripping my brain a part! i'm worried about you and i shouldn't be. it's your life, you're getting what you should...what your choices have lead you to but i want to help you. i don't know what to do.
maybe having a big heart will be the end of me
[i want you to lead me, take me somewhere. don't want to live in a dream one more day]