So...
It sometimes makes me sad that i don't make friends that easily. You see, I spend a good deal of my day on campus: in class, going to class, lunch between classes, computer lab time, all that stuff.... But there really aren't that many people here that I'd call friends. (I'm in the computer lab now, in case you couldn't guess. almost four hours between programming and math. fun...) But I don't hang out. I used to see Dana all the time, but she turned into a rabid bitch, which wasn't a fun thing to be around. I just hate being completely surrounded by people I don't know. This is nothing like high school. You know just about everyone there, even if you don't like them. Here, I know maybe one out of every two or three hundred people I see. And that's not an exaggeration. There are so many people here it boggles the mind (how a lot of them got accepted to ANY college is also pretty mind-boggling...). You just get this...kinda lonely feeling. Which is a little wierd because you are literally SURROUNDED by people... I don't know. I was hoping since i was tutoring Ryan in math that at least I'd see a friend every once in a while, but he dropped the math class, so no-go on that. I just wish that in some ways this was a bit more like high school. Where i had a giant gang of friends and I never had to eat lunch by myself. I told my mom that i think I'm somewhat autistic (which I do. Ryan once asked me how I can be so damn smart and so stupid at the same time) and she said I couldn't be because autistic people see the world differently. Like people were bugs, or wall paper. And it's not that extreme, but sometime I think I don't relate to people the way that i'm supposed to...