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Well, my husband just left to walk the 3 miles to work. His boss finally gave him his very own keys to the shop and the toolbox, so he's now able to work whenever he wants. I hope this means they will be finishing up trucks a lot faster because my husband gets paid on commission. He hasn't been paid in a month, sadly. The boss has had a lot of personal stuff going on (deaths, mostly) the last few weeks, and someone tried to take his truck back without paying for the work already done on it (injectors or something), so my husband didn't get to get paid for the work he did on the truck. Which is also why we are in such a rut at the moment.
My oldest daughter just left with her friends. She will be 16 in January and it makes me cry every time I think about it. It was so hard to give her her independence, but I slowly worked my way into it. She's so beautiful, I worry about her constantly. But at least she is stable. Her medications seem to practically performed a miracle. I haven't seen her crazy melt-downs in months! Thank you, Science, for giving me back my daughter.
Tonight it is just the two younger girls and myself. I really wish I had $20 laying somewhere so I could just order pizza for us. I have an eGift certificate for Domino's in the amount of $10, but that's not going to get us very much. Alas....
I don't know, I haven't really written in this thing in so long. I have no idea what to say, really. All the archived posts I just read... just doesn't sound like me. At all. I mean, it's like I'm reading the blog of a stranger. How weird is that?
I am lonely. I hardly ever get out of this house, I don't have any friends close by that I can visit. Or a car in which to transport myself. Depression is also rearing its ugly head. I'm normally a very clean, neat person, but right now, I'm looking at my kitchen and it's a wreck. And I can't find the slightest inclination to clean it up. That, my friends, is depression.
And my writing isn't good, either. Look at it, so many grammatical mistakes, even I'm cringing. But I don't feel like fixing them. Okay, this post really is going nowhere. I think I'll close for now.
My oldest daughter just left with her friends. She will be 16 in January and it makes me cry every time I think about it. It was so hard to give her her independence, but I slowly worked my way into it. She's so beautiful, I worry about her constantly. But at least she is stable. Her medications seem to practically performed a miracle. I haven't seen her crazy melt-downs in months! Thank you, Science, for giving me back my daughter.
Tonight it is just the two younger girls and myself. I really wish I had $20 laying somewhere so I could just order pizza for us. I have an eGift certificate for Domino's in the amount of $10, but that's not going to get us very much. Alas....
I don't know, I haven't really written in this thing in so long. I have no idea what to say, really. All the archived posts I just read... just doesn't sound like me. At all. I mean, it's like I'm reading the blog of a stranger. How weird is that?
I am lonely. I hardly ever get out of this house, I don't have any friends close by that I can visit. Or a car in which to transport myself. Depression is also rearing its ugly head. I'm normally a very clean, neat person, but right now, I'm looking at my kitchen and it's a wreck. And I can't find the slightest inclination to clean it up. That, my friends, is depression.
And my writing isn't good, either. Look at it, so many grammatical mistakes, even I'm cringing. But I don't feel like fixing them. Okay, this post really is going nowhere. I think I'll close for now.