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ok, i havent updated in a while so here goes nuttin.
work pretty much owns my soul now a days. here i am, workin 2 jobs at decent hours. kmart gives nice money and the other job i do pays nice as well, so u would figure i would be doin pretty good for finances. wrong. i keep spendin money on stupid shit that i really dont need to spend it on *besides food*. but anyways, i need to control myself on my money issue so ill quit feelin like a major loser.
sarah is goin to U of M, which i am happy for her that she is doin her dream. but the thing that hurts, is i already know i wont be seein her as offten as i have for now and in the past. they say, most relationships break apart at this point in time cuz "we dont want to harm any chances that you may have" or in other words those ppl cant stay truthful to the ones that they say they love. i find this really hard for me cuz ill be workin most of the time, and when sarah is at school, what will i do besides put myself down cuz i wont have sarah to cheer me up. sure i have friends, but how many friends do i truly have now? they seem to all have gone their own way and left me out of clues to join them. anyways, i dont know how ill be emotionaly startin next fall.
at work t-day, why is it that ppl always have you, the worker, do all the hard work when they have ppl that could help out? is it cuz we get paid to put ourselves into harms way to make them happy? i think not. i think its cuz the world is gettin really fuckin lazy and its pissin me off. if you ever had a worker do somethin for you that you could have done easily by yourself, i hope you go to hell, cuz its ppl like you that hurt ppl like me. sure, we get paid to work, but the pay isnt good enough to put ourselves through your bullshit.
another thing at work t-day, a lil black boy comes up to me and wants to make a purchase of some 2 way radios. im thinkin, ok he is with his ma. i was right on that one. i told the kid it would be up at the front. what did the kid do? he yelled out to find his ma, he was like... "MA...HEY MA...WHERE IS YOU" not kiddin bout sayin the is part by the way. anyways, i was expectin more somethin like this to come out of his mouth "HEY BITCH, GET OVER HERE AND BUY ME MY RADIOS SO I CAN SELL CRACK" cuz seroiusly, this kid was playin a game and talkin bout drugs and seriously swearin like a fuckin drunkin sailor. whats with kids these days, i really dont know. kinda scares me at times, but i guess i gotta live with it.
well, last 2 days has been nuttin but work, tmrw *sunday* i shall be restin... ALL DAMN DAY so yeah, if anythin is goin on give me a call, but ill probably be sleepin. so later all.
work pretty much owns my soul now a days. here i am, workin 2 jobs at decent hours. kmart gives nice money and the other job i do pays nice as well, so u would figure i would be doin pretty good for finances. wrong. i keep spendin money on stupid shit that i really dont need to spend it on *besides food*. but anyways, i need to control myself on my money issue so ill quit feelin like a major loser.
sarah is goin to U of M, which i am happy for her that she is doin her dream. but the thing that hurts, is i already know i wont be seein her as offten as i have for now and in the past. they say, most relationships break apart at this point in time cuz "we dont want to harm any chances that you may have" or in other words those ppl cant stay truthful to the ones that they say they love. i find this really hard for me cuz ill be workin most of the time, and when sarah is at school, what will i do besides put myself down cuz i wont have sarah to cheer me up. sure i have friends, but how many friends do i truly have now? they seem to all have gone their own way and left me out of clues to join them. anyways, i dont know how ill be emotionaly startin next fall.
at work t-day, why is it that ppl always have you, the worker, do all the hard work when they have ppl that could help out? is it cuz we get paid to put ourselves into harms way to make them happy? i think not. i think its cuz the world is gettin really fuckin lazy and its pissin me off. if you ever had a worker do somethin for you that you could have done easily by yourself, i hope you go to hell, cuz its ppl like you that hurt ppl like me. sure, we get paid to work, but the pay isnt good enough to put ourselves through your bullshit.
another thing at work t-day, a lil black boy comes up to me and wants to make a purchase of some 2 way radios. im thinkin, ok he is with his ma. i was right on that one. i told the kid it would be up at the front. what did the kid do? he yelled out to find his ma, he was like... "MA...HEY MA...WHERE IS YOU" not kiddin bout sayin the is part by the way. anyways, i was expectin more somethin like this to come out of his mouth "HEY BITCH, GET OVER HERE AND BUY ME MY RADIOS SO I CAN SELL CRACK" cuz seroiusly, this kid was playin a game and talkin bout drugs and seriously swearin like a fuckin drunkin sailor. whats with kids these days, i really dont know. kinda scares me at times, but i guess i gotta live with it.
well, last 2 days has been nuttin but work, tmrw *sunday* i shall be restin... ALL DAMN DAY so yeah, if anythin is goin on give me a call, but ill probably be sleepin. so later all.