Arigato
Ok, let me first say this to any readers. This maybe a bit sappy and... weird O.o but bare with me lol. Lately, for the past month or so, I've been extremly depressed. So depressed that I even tried to kill myself but didn't because I was gonna go to china town the next day (sad that thats the only reason why I was gonna stay alive for one more day). I was down because I was scared. I mean, I've always been failing at school. Seeing everyone else excel while I always stayed behind troubled me. I started to think that I was dumb, slow and stupid. I thought that I could never be good at something or be better at something. I mean I had felt that I had done everything in my life time and maybe it was over for me. But these last three days changed me. I talked to krystal durring one of my worse days and she talked to me and helped me calm down. I mean she told me I had to try but being what I was, I just put myself right back down. Then I hung out with Travis and Paul more. I mean we played games together and when I failed at them I gave up. Paul would get mad at me for jumping away from what I couldn't do, Travis would do the same but he has his own way towards things. But, I decided to go and try a lil harder thanks to them and I realized that I can do it if I tried. It may sound strange but playing games with my friends helped me alot. All my life I've always thought that someone was better then me so I always put myself down and stopped trying. But I realized that there is only one person keeping me down and stopping me from exceling... and that person was myself. I have to stop taking other peoples leads. I can do stuff if I try, no one else is gonna do it but me. I can do this. I thought about this on the way home and suddenly I felt so alive. It's kind of weird I know, but soon I felt like the best man in the world! I know I can do this 'Life' thing now! lol
But, this post isn't about how I overcame my problems. No, this post is about the people who saved my life. Krystal, Travis, and Paul. You may not know it but you stopped me from killing myself and made me feel like I can do it (even if you didn't know it), so for this I thank you for everything you've done. I mean you helped me through the worse moment of my life. I can't thank you enough, I mean, this is from the bottom of my heart... to you 3.... Arigato. Without you... I would really be dead...
But, this post isn't about how I overcame my problems. No, this post is about the people who saved my life. Krystal, Travis, and Paul. You may not know it but you stopped me from killing myself and made me feel like I can do it (even if you didn't know it), so for this I thank you for everything you've done. I mean you helped me through the worse moment of my life. I can't thank you enough, I mean, this is from the bottom of my heart... to you 3.... Arigato. Without you... I would really be dead...