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late last night i noticed blood in the center of my vision and started freaking out....what i mean is that if you were to look at my eye you'd see nothing wrong, but for me when i'm trying to see there's a big blob of blood in the dead center of my vision that floats around whenever i move my eye....i went to my opthomologist today for an emergency visit and what's happened is that i have a hemorrhage in the center of my vision that is a result of abnormal blood vessel growth; the gel surrounding my retina/eye/vision whatever has pulled and torn some blood vessels apart making them bleed and fucking up my vision. i'm scared as shit....i have to go see my retina specialist tomorrow for laser treatment and hope that they can do something that will fix this......i can't even begin to describe the panic i felt when i noticed this or how i'm still panicking and sick to my stomach about this...... i can deal with just about any type of health issue thrown at me except when it comes to my sight and the possibility of going blind....it's hard to not freak out and start crying....i'm a mess right now.