from the inside

[hellscarebear]

don't know who to trust
no surpise
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts sift through
and the lies

trying not to break
but im tired of all the deceit
every time i try to make myself
get back up on my feet
all i ever think about is this
all the tiring time between
and now
trying to put my trust in you
just takes so much out of me

i take every thing for inside
and throw it all away
'cause i swear/for the last time
i won't trust myself with you

tension is building inside
steadily
everyone feels so far away from me
heavy thoughts forcing their way
out of me

i won't trust myself with you
i won't waste myself on you
waste myself on you
you

this is for you jess i want to say i love you but i dont know if i should or if i even do anymore!!!!!!!!!