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god ive neglected this poor livejournal long enough eh? hehe. So, summer so far has already consisted of me: volunteering for my church against my will...my stepmother being viciously pregnant (if you dont know what that means, its when she gets really friggin bitchy/needy/lazy to the point of no return), which entails the waited arrival of Stephen Payne, no middle name yet. (august 26th..i think). As well, ive been doing various jobs for AVI (audio video innovations) as a crack-sound-engineer. hehe. the plans for new speakers are finished, and now comes ordering the parts.
So, for the past two weeks, i have actually been at my mothers house, where i have a new computer! although it gives me trouble already...its lightning fast, and kicks massive ass. dual screens are so fun as well xD. started cs-ing. getting better...i sucked massive balls to start out with...(greg dont say a word xD). otherwise, i did almost nothing else in those two weeks. eh. and kicking myself for it now that im back at my fathers house. unlike every other kid in america, the summer break doesnt appeal to me like it should...and i await the arrival of the new semester to start xD..yeah, im a disgrace. say it.
Now, in terms of my head, im ok. dads not helping, as well as a few other situations. i can feel myself getting more analytical, making me more cynical, logistical, independent, and to be honest, i dont like it. ive cleared up a lot by doing that, but in return, i get nothing. an analytical mind is a heavy one. changes my perspective alot. most likely i'm like this as im spending lots of time at my dads house, which does that to me. but what worries me is, when i went to my mother house, it took a lot longer to shake it off...and im pretty sure i didnt completely shake it. Is that who i am now? to hell if i know. hehe, all in all, im fine. just different. hehe. ok, ive scared you all enough. goodnight.
So, for the past two weeks, i have actually been at my mothers house, where i have a new computer! although it gives me trouble already...its lightning fast, and kicks massive ass. dual screens are so fun as well xD. started cs-ing. getting better...i sucked massive balls to start out with...(greg dont say a word xD). otherwise, i did almost nothing else in those two weeks. eh. and kicking myself for it now that im back at my fathers house. unlike every other kid in america, the summer break doesnt appeal to me like it should...and i await the arrival of the new semester to start xD..yeah, im a disgrace. say it.
Now, in terms of my head, im ok. dads not helping, as well as a few other situations. i can feel myself getting more analytical, making me more cynical, logistical, independent, and to be honest, i dont like it. ive cleared up a lot by doing that, but in return, i get nothing. an analytical mind is a heavy one. changes my perspective alot. most likely i'm like this as im spending lots of time at my dads house, which does that to me. but what worries me is, when i went to my mother house, it took a lot longer to shake it off...and im pretty sure i didnt completely shake it. Is that who i am now? to hell if i know. hehe, all in all, im fine. just different. hehe. ok, ive scared you all enough. goodnight.