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I'm in a lot of pain, my back's been hurting for a couple of years but it's never hurt as bad as this, it's so bad that it even hurts to breathe. These last couple of weeks I've been reflecting a lot on my life, I havent' really been myself at all and it's begining to haunt me, I've built a wall around me so no one at all can see how I really look like, how I really feel like, I dont' know why, I dont' know how, I finally got to deal with some shit that I didn't want to deal with, but I needed to deal with... sometimes complete self indulgence is not what a person needs. I want to apologize in advance or for things that I'll hurt people with, and I want to apologize for anyone I've hurt since I turned myself into this... monster. I can't guarantee that I won't hurt anyone, I can't garantee that I'll accomplish what I will attempt to create. So next thing I have to deal with: Jimmy, hey I"m sorry man for snapping at you the other day, I know you never saw the entry that I almost put up, and I stopped myself because I realized that I might be a little pissed at you but that entry was taking out all my frustration and anguer I built up deep inside over time on you and that wasn't right man, and I want to apologize for that shit man.
The Wall is a Pink Floyd album, it's about a guy named "Pink" who's the lead singer of a band called Pink Floyd (no one in the band is named Pink), some say it was a story about a real member of Pink Floyd, my dad says it's about Roger Waters, but it's about a wall that's built, every problem that he hasn't dealt with in his life is a "brick" in the wall, there's a lot of stuff that I can relate with in the story, the songs Mother, Hey You, Comfortably Numb in specific, and there are a lot of songs that I cant' really relate to at all, Vira, Nobody Home, One Of My Turns, but I'll post the whole album eventually, and I'll tell about how it relates or doesn't relate to my life and how they relate to the story... first song is called "In The Flesh?" and it's pretty much showing how he will reveal who he really is.. kinda fitting to this entry (the parts in italics are scenes that they put in the album)
...isn't this where we came in?
So ya? Thought ya?
Might like to... go to the show?
To feel the warm thrill of confusion
That space cadet glow
Tell me is something eluding you sunshine?
Is this not what you expected to see?
If you wanna find out what's behind these cold eyes...
You'll just have to blow your way through this disguise!!
Lights!!
Roll the sound effects!!
Action!!