- if i were to die this morning, would you tell me things you wouldn't have -
Found out my aunty dorothy who i'm quite close to has got cancer. She isnt going to live. I'm going to see her tomorrow after physio. I'm just not quite sure what i am going to say to her. What can i say to her.
On a much much lighter note. Going to see the ataris tomorrow!! *woo* *yey* *dances*
Si's coming over at one ish to "get ready" so we have time to chill before setting off. I saw a picture of his ex on facparty who i've never met, but she's very pretty. I cant forget what she did to him though, so if they get back together its going to be difficult.
I come off my tablets tomorrow. *yey* which is a very good thing. I've put on 2 stone and gone up 2 dress sizes because of them!!! *angry face* and thats with not having an appetite for 4 months. But the doctor said with the new ones ill start taking, my weight will just drop off. I bloody hope so. *grrrr* I'm still in the process of finding what tablets suit me though so this probably wont be my last tablet change...especially as i have to take them for the rest of my life. *sob*
I stupidly decided that the photos of me i have are actually okay photos and reflect nothing of what i actually look like or how not-so-hot i am. Its basically lying about what you look like. So i took some photos of me looking normal. And they are utterly bleurrgghh. But at least its the truth. *sigh*
I'm eating pringles. and i dont actually like them. well the salt and vinegar ones are okay i guess. I used to be obsessed with crisps but now i hardly eat them. dont really eat much of anything anymore.
Its my birthday soon and yes i am just blathering on. But i feel like typing. So i am. So my mum booked the weekend away so ive got the house to myself. So with RBF gig on the friday and my party on the saturday and my birthday on the sunday im kinda hoping to put this week behind me. Cos this week has been fucking awful...i keep expecting the roof to cave in or something. Positive attitude. Thats what i need....and a guy. :P as a bonus. preferably a non cheating one. I'm not quite sure if there exists a guy that a) would like me b) be like me. in morals and stuff.
Think im going to go to bed.
Hair = a mess. but a straight mess.
number of messages left by my stalker = bzillion
am i going to call/msg him back = never.
On a much much lighter note. Going to see the ataris tomorrow!! *woo* *yey* *dances*
Si's coming over at one ish to "get ready" so we have time to chill before setting off. I saw a picture of his ex on facparty who i've never met, but she's very pretty. I cant forget what she did to him though, so if they get back together its going to be difficult.
I come off my tablets tomorrow. *yey* which is a very good thing. I've put on 2 stone and gone up 2 dress sizes because of them!!! *angry face* and thats with not having an appetite for 4 months. But the doctor said with the new ones ill start taking, my weight will just drop off. I bloody hope so. *grrrr* I'm still in the process of finding what tablets suit me though so this probably wont be my last tablet change...especially as i have to take them for the rest of my life. *sob*
I stupidly decided that the photos of me i have are actually okay photos and reflect nothing of what i actually look like or how not-so-hot i am. Its basically lying about what you look like. So i took some photos of me looking normal. And they are utterly bleurrgghh. But at least its the truth. *sigh*
I'm eating pringles. and i dont actually like them. well the salt and vinegar ones are okay i guess. I used to be obsessed with crisps but now i hardly eat them. dont really eat much of anything anymore.
Its my birthday soon and yes i am just blathering on. But i feel like typing. So i am. So my mum booked the weekend away so ive got the house to myself. So with RBF gig on the friday and my party on the saturday and my birthday on the sunday im kinda hoping to put this week behind me. Cos this week has been fucking awful...i keep expecting the roof to cave in or something. Positive attitude. Thats what i need....and a guy. :P as a bonus. preferably a non cheating one. I'm not quite sure if there exists a guy that a) would like me b) be like me. in morals and stuff.
Think im going to go to bed.
Hair = a mess. but a straight mess.
number of messages left by my stalker = bzillion
am i going to call/msg him back = never.