- feeling the sound through electric veins -
Well i went to see school of rock last night, and it rocked!! Although most of the time i was drooling over the guitars and singing along with all the classic rock tracks. I found it hysterically funny but i'm not sure everyone else found it as amusing as i did. Although most people laughed when ben suddenly announced "omigod h! Thats you in 5 years time!!" to the whole entire cinema. Lets hope he didnt mean 20 odd and male. Because that would just be wrong. majorly.
My dad's finally split up with linda. Lets see how long this lasts. my bet is about a week??
Gordon's house burnt down last night. The house his ex wife and kids live in anyway. So i had the job of babysitting today. Many thanks to the dvd god. *worships* However that means im sleeping on the sofa. Again.
I finally wrote another song after about 4 months of not writing anything. I now have more material for my appraisal. *scared* But if this falls through i still havent heard from leeds college of music, which means i might not get in there either. I'll die if i dont get in. seriously.
I was awake for ages last night, thinking. Which is extremely bad for my health. But i'm so confused at the moment...i need to go somewhere to sort the mess in my head out. All i wanted was someone to love me. It never seemed much to ask. But no-one can love a failure right? and i failed spectacularly. I understand why they dont love me and i understand why they did what they did. But nothing eases the pain. I want out. I've had enough. I cant cope anymore. I feel like im fighting to stop exploding with all the confusion and hurt. I have to stay in control. I will never ever fail them again.
My dad's finally split up with linda. Lets see how long this lasts. my bet is about a week??
Gordon's house burnt down last night. The house his ex wife and kids live in anyway. So i had the job of babysitting today. Many thanks to the dvd god. *worships* However that means im sleeping on the sofa. Again.
I finally wrote another song after about 4 months of not writing anything. I now have more material for my appraisal. *scared* But if this falls through i still havent heard from leeds college of music, which means i might not get in there either. I'll die if i dont get in. seriously.
I was awake for ages last night, thinking. Which is extremely bad for my health. But i'm so confused at the moment...i need to go somewhere to sort the mess in my head out. All i wanted was someone to love me. It never seemed much to ask. But no-one can love a failure right? and i failed spectacularly. I understand why they dont love me and i understand why they did what they did. But nothing eases the pain. I want out. I've had enough. I cant cope anymore. I feel like im fighting to stop exploding with all the confusion and hurt. I have to stay in control. I will never ever fail them again.