the shittiest feeling is knowing a great friend hates u

[hells_69_love]

I feel like shit... I was talking to Dan and he said that Zach said Hi but I don't know if I can believe that 'cause he pretty much told me that he hates me and I don't want him to but I can't change that 'cause it's his mind not mine. It sucks. I wish I could just be friends with him again but I can't. I told him that I want my hoodie back too. I brought his over to Kieshas lastnight and I hope he gets it and drops mine off 'cause I haven't even been able to wear mine 'cause It was at Mykas and Zach got cold so Myka gave it to him to wear and he kept it. I dunno if he still has it but I hope he does 'cause Myka doesn't come here anymore so yeah. As much as it hurts to know that Zach hates me I know that he's better off ot beeing around me cause I'm not that great of a friend. I wish I could change. I wish I knew what I had to do different but there is soo much wrong with me.

I broke up with Andy either on Friday or Saturday. and I haven't called him in like 2 weeks 'cause my dad is probably pissed about the phone bill 'cause of all the long distance calls to Andy and Chris. I still call Chris every now and then but not too much 'cause I don't want to piss my dad off anymore.

But yeah that is enough for now.