My stomache is in knots

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Friday started off as a very awesome day. I woke up really early, got ready for work and just felt really pretty. I haven't felt pretty in a very long time. I went to work, my regular John was there. He's the older man who's wife used to work with us, and he's the one who has lost his one leg due to cancer. He always wants me to wait on him, which makes me feels really awesome. He's just a great guy, and all my tables that day were wonderful. I think it's cause of how good I felt. After the lunch rush, I was cut and supposed to come back at four to work the night shift as well. At the time that I got cut it was only 1:30 I had tons of time to kill. I hopped in my car and started to drive up to Akron, I thought I'd surprise Don at work. He's been asking me to come and visit him for the longest time. So it was the perfect time. I tried to call on my way up just to make sure that he was going to be around. He didn't answer his cell phone and Terry tried to connect me to his desk a few times, and he didn't answer. So I just thought that I would go up anyway, perhaps he just needed to pick up Tim or something. So I got there, talked to Terry and asked him if I could just go back to his desk and leave him a note. When I went back there his cell phone was on the desk and his AIM was stilll running. I started to write him a letter when Tim's message popped up. When that one came up I saw another one flashing from one of his friends. Just to see and to be a lil nosey, I clicked on in and started to read it. He was talking about how he's not a happy boy, and he wouldn't know how to explain it to me. So I went to the very top of the page to see what the hell he was talking about. Here Bobbi (the pysco x girlfriend) was saying that she's pregant. I fipped out!!! Here Don had said that he wasn't sleeping with her, and the last time he did was right before he and I met and all this stuff, and here I'm reading this. I wanted to puke right then and there. But I didn't I just went outside to my car and started to ball my eyes out. I couldn't even drive. I called Amy but she wasn't home, so I talked to Tony for a lil bit. I called Don's cell phone and told him that was it. I was breaking up with him and I couldn't believe that he would do something like this to me. At this point I'm still outside of his work crying my eyes out, barley able to breath, and then he calls. He asked if he could come out and talk to me. I said sure, I wasn't going anywhere anytime soon. So he came out and started to explain things to me. And he told me that he wasn't sleeping with her. Bobbi told him this story about going to the doctors for some gull bladder problem or something, but they couldn't opperate because she might be prenant. Well she also told Don that she was about 3 months pregant. Which if he was telling me the truth, then there would be no way that it was his kid. Well after asking him a few questions, here I found out that she said there's a three month window from the time you have sex to the time you get pregnant. YEAH IF SHE'S A FUCKING CHICKEN!!!! Don didn't know, he's confused. So I started to explain the birds and bee's to him. That it take atleast 72 hours after having upprotected sex to get pregnant. And after that 72 hours if the egg doesn't get fertilized then the sperm dies and the body obsorbs it. Not fucking 3 months like the crazy bitch was trying to tell him. That is unless his lying to me and he has been fucking her. Which is in my book, completley impossible cause he's with me every single day, and if he's not we're talking. I just think she's crazy. And I think he really needs to get himself out of the fucking house he's in and away from all this bullshit. Or he and I aren't going to last. I hate to say it, and I'm so inlove with him. But I just can't do it, I wont be put thru this. But my heart keeps telling me that things are going to be fine. Everytime I think of all the things we've done, and all the things said. I just don't believe that he'd do something this dumb to me. And well frankly if he is, then he deserves that fat bitch, cause I'm way to good to be treated like shit.

Scream at me til my ears bleed

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