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jeffrey: what are we arguing about?
Me: ur just trying to tell me going out is good
jeffrey: once in a while yes
Me: in reality we just rather relax at home cuddling thats it
jeffrey: that sounds god
Me: yep
Me: if this means anything, justin and i are going on a trip in 2 weeks
Me: for a week
jeffrey: awesome
Me: yep
Me: so u know jeff
Me: not every relationship is perfect
jeffrey: yep
jeffrey: me n sam r gonna go ona cruise in the summer
Me: not every relationship leads to marriage
jeffrey: nope
jeffrey: I thought I was gonna with katie
jeffrey: u thought u was gonna with matt
Me: but i ddnt see he could be the father of my children
Me: i didnt trust matt
jeffrey: y
Me: where i trust justin more than anyone in this world
jeffrey: he's good with kids
Me: it wasnt there
Me: i wasnt happy with him
Me: he didnt have a personality of himself
Me: he did whatever i wanted
Me: i want someone who can stand up to me but yet wants to be with me
Me: matt is like a robot
jeffrey: robot lol
Me: justin is a human. some one who i actually let him know my social security number
Me: my bank account
Me: i knew if i could find some1 like that
Me: that was it for me
Me: hell i dont know if i make sense
Me: but
Me: justin is someone i could see at 90 years old
Me: but good looking
jeffrey: at 90?
Me: rest of our lives together
Me: sitting out in our porch talking about politics and how we want to change the world together
Me: little pieces by pieces
Me: i was reading something
Me: online about love
Me: i dont think i ever loved matt
Me: i cared for him
Me: but
Me: it was an infatuation thing
Me: it was like "Wow a guy likes me"
Me: i mean no one has ever liked me before matt
Me: i didnt exist to many guys
Me: does that make sense
Me: i have finally come to conclusion that justin is my first true love
Me: love that will never die
jeffrey: why do u always diss matt
Me: im not
jeffrey: u usually do
Me: because i didnt know how to sort my feelings
Me: i finally realize
Me: stuff
Me: so if i see him again
Me: i can see myself beinf friends with him again
jeffrey: cuz he's a guy whocares deeply
Me: im sorting my feelings about everyone in my life right now
jeffrey: how did u break up with him
Me: online
Me: childish of me
jeffrey: ah
Me: i was only 19 what did u expect of me
Something just clicked. How every relationship I had lead me to Justin. I am starting to realize things happen for a reason. I cant regret anymore but I can say its in the past, I need to start smiling again.
I would like to talk to every person in my life that I have "drift apart from" and try to start over. I need a clean slate.
I Have been smiling alittle more and more every day. Not trying to let things get to me. I am writing silly I love justin on my folders more than ever, looking forward to seeing him whenever I can in our busy every day life. This weekend Im gonna smile.
Thats what I want to do. I need to let go of my past. I cant be angry anymore. I need to talk to my grandma and tell her I miss her despise her flaws. who knows she could be dead tomorrow and I dont want to have to go thru regrets for life.
I love every one of you in your own way, you guys have made some slight difference in my life because of you I wouldnt be who I am today. Thank you, give yourself a pat on the shoulders.
Things are clicking for me. Finally!
Me: ur just trying to tell me going out is good
jeffrey: once in a while yes
Me: in reality we just rather relax at home cuddling thats it
jeffrey: that sounds god
Me: yep
Me: if this means anything, justin and i are going on a trip in 2 weeks
Me: for a week
jeffrey: awesome
Me: yep
Me: so u know jeff
Me: not every relationship is perfect
jeffrey: yep
jeffrey: me n sam r gonna go ona cruise in the summer
Me: not every relationship leads to marriage
jeffrey: nope
jeffrey: I thought I was gonna with katie
jeffrey: u thought u was gonna with matt
Me: but i ddnt see he could be the father of my children
Me: i didnt trust matt
jeffrey: y
Me: where i trust justin more than anyone in this world
jeffrey: he's good with kids
Me: it wasnt there
Me: i wasnt happy with him
Me: he didnt have a personality of himself
Me: he did whatever i wanted
Me: i want someone who can stand up to me but yet wants to be with me
Me: matt is like a robot
jeffrey: robot lol
Me: justin is a human. some one who i actually let him know my social security number
Me: my bank account
Me: i knew if i could find some1 like that
Me: that was it for me
Me: hell i dont know if i make sense
Me: but
Me: justin is someone i could see at 90 years old
Me: but good looking
jeffrey: at 90?
Me: rest of our lives together
Me: sitting out in our porch talking about politics and how we want to change the world together
Me: little pieces by pieces
Me: i was reading something
Me: online about love
Me: i dont think i ever loved matt
Me: i cared for him
Me: but
Me: it was an infatuation thing
Me: it was like "Wow a guy likes me"
Me: i mean no one has ever liked me before matt
Me: i didnt exist to many guys
Me: does that make sense
Me: i have finally come to conclusion that justin is my first true love
Me: love that will never die
jeffrey: why do u always diss matt
Me: im not
jeffrey: u usually do
Me: because i didnt know how to sort my feelings
Me: i finally realize
Me: stuff
Me: so if i see him again
Me: i can see myself beinf friends with him again
jeffrey: cuz he's a guy whocares deeply
Me: im sorting my feelings about everyone in my life right now
jeffrey: how did u break up with him
Me: online
Me: childish of me
jeffrey: ah
Me: i was only 19 what did u expect of me
Something just clicked. How every relationship I had lead me to Justin. I am starting to realize things happen for a reason. I cant regret anymore but I can say its in the past, I need to start smiling again.
I would like to talk to every person in my life that I have "drift apart from" and try to start over. I need a clean slate.
I Have been smiling alittle more and more every day. Not trying to let things get to me. I am writing silly I love justin on my folders more than ever, looking forward to seeing him whenever I can in our busy every day life. This weekend Im gonna smile.
Thats what I want to do. I need to let go of my past. I cant be angry anymore. I need to talk to my grandma and tell her I miss her despise her flaws. who knows she could be dead tomorrow and I dont want to have to go thru regrets for life.
I love every one of you in your own way, you guys have made some slight difference in my life because of you I wouldnt be who I am today. Thank you, give yourself a pat on the shoulders.
Things are clicking for me. Finally!