BLAH HELLO
HELLLOOOOOOOOOOO....
Missing Tage more than ever. I feel like he is just never going to come home. He knows what is going on in my life because i write him every detail of my life, and what is going on in it, but his emails are breif, and last nights didn't even include an "I LOVE YOU" Which really upset me- it was an "Love you, Tage" and how he signed it, type of deal. Its not that I dont want to wait, its just that I wish i had more communication with him, and that I could see him. This summer is just going by so slow, and his last email he told me that he might not be home for the end of the summer which makes me think that its my fault, even though its not. Our relationship is just so messed up because its perfect when we are together and everything but when we are apart I just miss him so much, but who wouldn't miss someone for months at a time, especially when the only contact they have with them is an email maybe everyother day that is very unemotional. I understand that he can not tell me alot about what is going on in his life due to military rules, but it would be nice to just know! I sent him pictures of graduation last night. he wrote back and said he loved them and that makes me happy. He wrote that he loved me wearing his necklace. I wear his heart around my neck, always.
Jodi's apartment was a first time adventure, and a dissapointment in general. It makes me think, Oh my god, my bestfriend is dating this? First off his roommate John and his girlfriend Karen Walenta are hudge Cokeheads and were high off their asses just making a fool out of themselves. Also other people who were there were kristi plog, james his other roommate,and jame's girlfriend, and joe donelly and his girlfriend. Kristi plog rudely asked me what type of occassion I would wear a DRESS LIKE THAT FOR? I was like ummm well it was bchs graduation tonight and i haven't changed yet, and she goes ohhh..well was the ceremony boring?? IM like youre so fucking rude..i didn't say that but i wanted to. Then later on shes like SOOO TRISHA YOU DONT SMOKE? im like NO...She just bothered me. Than James is talking to Jodi about doing coke the night before he was like looking at him stunned and trying to like get him to change the subject like right there and then because I was there and he knows I hate that shit. So later in the car when Melissa was praising Jodi for not doing coke like his rooomates...So i told her what james and jodi had discussed earlier when she was not around. I Think thats fucked up. I Just hate that trash, and I dont want to associate with it. Melissa works with, and has started to hang around with a bunch of people I dont like to be apart of b/c trash is what they are. Hard Drug using, fucked up kids who dropped out of highschool and have no class what no ever, just sit around gambling, drinking and what not. That is not my type of social gathering, or my type of crowd to hang around in.
Missing Tage more than ever. I feel like he is just never going to come home. He knows what is going on in my life because i write him every detail of my life, and what is going on in it, but his emails are breif, and last nights didn't even include an "I LOVE YOU" Which really upset me- it was an "Love you, Tage" and how he signed it, type of deal. Its not that I dont want to wait, its just that I wish i had more communication with him, and that I could see him. This summer is just going by so slow, and his last email he told me that he might not be home for the end of the summer which makes me think that its my fault, even though its not. Our relationship is just so messed up because its perfect when we are together and everything but when we are apart I just miss him so much, but who wouldn't miss someone for months at a time, especially when the only contact they have with them is an email maybe everyother day that is very unemotional. I understand that he can not tell me alot about what is going on in his life due to military rules, but it would be nice to just know! I sent him pictures of graduation last night. he wrote back and said he loved them and that makes me happy. He wrote that he loved me wearing his necklace. I wear his heart around my neck, always.
Jodi's apartment was a first time adventure, and a dissapointment in general. It makes me think, Oh my god, my bestfriend is dating this? First off his roommate John and his girlfriend Karen Walenta are hudge Cokeheads and were high off their asses just making a fool out of themselves. Also other people who were there were kristi plog, james his other roommate,and jame's girlfriend, and joe donelly and his girlfriend. Kristi plog rudely asked me what type of occassion I would wear a DRESS LIKE THAT FOR? I was like ummm well it was bchs graduation tonight and i haven't changed yet, and she goes ohhh..well was the ceremony boring?? IM like youre so fucking rude..i didn't say that but i wanted to. Then later on shes like SOOO TRISHA YOU DONT SMOKE? im like NO...She just bothered me. Than James is talking to Jodi about doing coke the night before he was like looking at him stunned and trying to like get him to change the subject like right there and then because I was there and he knows I hate that shit. So later in the car when Melissa was praising Jodi for not doing coke like his rooomates...So i told her what james and jodi had discussed earlier when she was not around. I Think thats fucked up. I Just hate that trash, and I dont want to associate with it. Melissa works with, and has started to hang around with a bunch of people I dont like to be apart of b/c trash is what they are. Hard Drug using, fucked up kids who dropped out of highschool and have no class what no ever, just sit around gambling, drinking and what not. That is not my type of social gathering, or my type of crowd to hang around in.