10 things I wish I could say to 10 people
1. You two are wonderful people. I love you both more than you can ever know. I wish you agreed on more when it comes to the important things in life. I admire your ability to get along after everything you both have been through but sometimes you need to respect each other more. Try to comfort one another and actually sit down and listen to what the other has to say. Blaming each other and bringing old dirty laundry to the table does nothing but hurt you both more. So grow up and make decisions. Together.
2. I hope you realize what you have put us all through. Sometimes I hope you rot in hell. Others I feel bad that you have made such stupid decisions and have done nothing with your life. I wonder what will become of you. I wonder if you will change or if you will continue on your path to self destruction. I hope you change. But I am not sure if I will ever be able to see you in the same light. You lie, you cheat, you steal. What good can come of that? You are old enough to face the consequences of your actions and I personally hope they make you do the maximum time for all of your charges. Good luck. I will never trust you again. Nor will I ever baby you. So don't even try to play me. Save your breath.
3. Ah, you crack me up. I have more pictures of you than of anyone else I know. You are always telling me how much you love him but second guess yourself later on. I worry about you. I know you two are great for each other, I just wish it could be great for you all the time. Stick it out.
4. You crack me up. I miss all of our craziness last year. You were always there for me even when I didn't want to be helped. I love the way we love the same things and share stupid little things with each other. Sometimes I wonder why you do the things you do. You are such a smart person yet you sometimes make ill thought out decisions. I worry about you. Be smart. You can do better. So go get it. Never ever settle for less than you deserve. Stop settling.
5. Smile. Even when life gets you down. You have such great ambitions but sometimes I wonder if you really want to be here. You have to let go of the past and start a new life. I just want you to smile a bit more. You are such a beautiful person, let the world see it. And sleep at night. This no sleeping thing cannot be very healthy.
6. I hope you get to feeling better soon. I don't know what the fuck is up with you but I know that it is not good. You do not need a man to make you. You will never need a man to make you. You are a strong, dominant female. And that works for you. You need to find peace within yourself and not rely on others to make you feel good about yourself. Especially others that could give you a disease or something. You should want the perfect man for you. Not just any man at any time. Messy people are considered creative. You take your bad moods out on other people, I know from experience that that is not a good idea. This was not a misunderstanding and you know it. I have tried to be the bigger person and talk to you, but like you said about her, you are not easy to talk to. Getting defensive does not help your case. You could just say whats on your mind and not take stuff out on me. Just a thought. Feel better.
7. You kill me. We have been through so much and still I feel like I mean diddly squat to you. Yes, there are days like today when you call and make me feel like a million bucks, that is until you start raving about her. whoopee. highlight of my day, let me tell you. You are a great person. You know I adore you. But how about a little love every once in a while. See me for me, and not when you want to. But rather all the time. I don't want to be your convienent friend. I want to be your every moment friend. You have always viewed me in a certain light that I really don't like. I don't want to be that girl. Don't make me that girl. I want to hear about the good and the bad. Let me help you out every once in a while. Don't ever tell me about your sex life with her again. It continually rips my heart out and every word is just another stomp. So please, spare me the gory details. Hell, you could lie to me and tell me she is a terrible person and you hate her, that would be nice too. ;-)
8. You soften me. I am not sure why. I feel like when I am around you, I am this control freak. I feel like such a hard ass because you are the mushy and corny one. I am so dazed and confused by all of this. You will soon learn that I hate having my personal space intruded upon and yes, that includes you. That is just how I am. So let me let you creep in. You make me feel like a million bucks when you are sweet as pie. Sometimes you are overbearing. I consider myself a very hands off person. I do my own thing and I don't like to feel pressured. Please lay off a little. It's not you, its me. You are too nice to play rugby. There, I said it.
9. I appreciate how we can pick things up where we leave them. I know we should talk more but sometimes thats just not going to happen. We both have stuff going on and we understand that. I love that you are happy down there and have made new friends but I really don't like that all you do is hang out with him. Distance is a good thing I think. You are often complaining about him smoking and him this and him that, why be with him if you want to change him? I guess I am a hypocrite. I do the same thing. Shit. I want to be able to hang out and do nothing with just you. Not him. He's not my best friend, you are. Don't move there permanently just to be near him. What about your family? Your friends? Your cousin? What about us?
10. Why the hell are you so far away? Physically and even more importantly friend wise? Why do you make me feel like this? You are so selfish to thing you have absolutely no time to pick up the phone and say hello for 5 minutes out of your week. Good lord. Grow up. Don't act like this. I am not in love with you. Just be a friend, isn't that what you want anyways? Your mom is such a nice person, give her a break. And be nice to your brother, you guys are great for each other. And don't talk to her, she's a bitch and terrible for you. Everyone thinks so. If you paid attention, and weren't so blinded by her, you'd know. Come back to me. Please.
2. I hope you realize what you have put us all through. Sometimes I hope you rot in hell. Others I feel bad that you have made such stupid decisions and have done nothing with your life. I wonder what will become of you. I wonder if you will change or if you will continue on your path to self destruction. I hope you change. But I am not sure if I will ever be able to see you in the same light. You lie, you cheat, you steal. What good can come of that? You are old enough to face the consequences of your actions and I personally hope they make you do the maximum time for all of your charges. Good luck. I will never trust you again. Nor will I ever baby you. So don't even try to play me. Save your breath.
3. Ah, you crack me up. I have more pictures of you than of anyone else I know. You are always telling me how much you love him but second guess yourself later on. I worry about you. I know you two are great for each other, I just wish it could be great for you all the time. Stick it out.
4. You crack me up. I miss all of our craziness last year. You were always there for me even when I didn't want to be helped. I love the way we love the same things and share stupid little things with each other. Sometimes I wonder why you do the things you do. You are such a smart person yet you sometimes make ill thought out decisions. I worry about you. Be smart. You can do better. So go get it. Never ever settle for less than you deserve. Stop settling.
5. Smile. Even when life gets you down. You have such great ambitions but sometimes I wonder if you really want to be here. You have to let go of the past and start a new life. I just want you to smile a bit more. You are such a beautiful person, let the world see it. And sleep at night. This no sleeping thing cannot be very healthy.
6. I hope you get to feeling better soon. I don't know what the fuck is up with you but I know that it is not good. You do not need a man to make you. You will never need a man to make you. You are a strong, dominant female. And that works for you. You need to find peace within yourself and not rely on others to make you feel good about yourself. Especially others that could give you a disease or something. You should want the perfect man for you. Not just any man at any time. Messy people are considered creative. You take your bad moods out on other people, I know from experience that that is not a good idea. This was not a misunderstanding and you know it. I have tried to be the bigger person and talk to you, but like you said about her, you are not easy to talk to. Getting defensive does not help your case. You could just say whats on your mind and not take stuff out on me. Just a thought. Feel better.
7. You kill me. We have been through so much and still I feel like I mean diddly squat to you. Yes, there are days like today when you call and make me feel like a million bucks, that is until you start raving about her. whoopee. highlight of my day, let me tell you. You are a great person. You know I adore you. But how about a little love every once in a while. See me for me, and not when you want to. But rather all the time. I don't want to be your convienent friend. I want to be your every moment friend. You have always viewed me in a certain light that I really don't like. I don't want to be that girl. Don't make me that girl. I want to hear about the good and the bad. Let me help you out every once in a while. Don't ever tell me about your sex life with her again. It continually rips my heart out and every word is just another stomp. So please, spare me the gory details. Hell, you could lie to me and tell me she is a terrible person and you hate her, that would be nice too. ;-)
8. You soften me. I am not sure why. I feel like when I am around you, I am this control freak. I feel like such a hard ass because you are the mushy and corny one. I am so dazed and confused by all of this. You will soon learn that I hate having my personal space intruded upon and yes, that includes you. That is just how I am. So let me let you creep in. You make me feel like a million bucks when you are sweet as pie. Sometimes you are overbearing. I consider myself a very hands off person. I do my own thing and I don't like to feel pressured. Please lay off a little. It's not you, its me. You are too nice to play rugby. There, I said it.
9. I appreciate how we can pick things up where we leave them. I know we should talk more but sometimes thats just not going to happen. We both have stuff going on and we understand that. I love that you are happy down there and have made new friends but I really don't like that all you do is hang out with him. Distance is a good thing I think. You are often complaining about him smoking and him this and him that, why be with him if you want to change him? I guess I am a hypocrite. I do the same thing. Shit. I want to be able to hang out and do nothing with just you. Not him. He's not my best friend, you are. Don't move there permanently just to be near him. What about your family? Your friends? Your cousin? What about us?
10. Why the hell are you so far away? Physically and even more importantly friend wise? Why do you make me feel like this? You are so selfish to thing you have absolutely no time to pick up the phone and say hello for 5 minutes out of your week. Good lord. Grow up. Don't act like this. I am not in love with you. Just be a friend, isn't that what you want anyways? Your mom is such a nice person, give her a break. And be nice to your brother, you guys are great for each other. And don't talk to her, she's a bitch and terrible for you. Everyone thinks so. If you paid attention, and weren't so blinded by her, you'd know. Come back to me. Please.