Life.
I talk. A lot.
But tonight.
I speak too much.
I forgot. It's only been weeks.
I made myself look like I expect a lot. And it scares him, he fear that he can't be the man that I expected him to be.
I don't really ask much.
I just want someone to grow old with.
Someone who will love me, and accept me.
I've been waiting this guy since forever and now that he's here. I scared him off by all the things I said tonight. I don't ask him to be what I'm looking for in a guy. He is enough the way he is. I accept him the way he is.
He keeps saying "Aku insan biasa saja".
Yea, he is biasa. And that's what I look for. I don't need a superhuman. I just want someone to love me, to go through this life together. Someone who can be there when I'm alone and lost in my bad thought. Someone who can laugh at my joke. Someone who can smile with me. Someone who I can hold onto when the thunder sound so loud at night.
And my heart says that someone is him.
But I scared him off.
I'm a shithead.