Butler.
Boys. Or Men.
Let’s talk about them in today’s post.
Today is supposed to be my relaxing day but I’ve been receiving calls regarding works and it stresses me out a little bit. I need to do self-pampering next week in order to stay sane. Don’t care about the money, I can find money, I need to take care of myself. These past few weeks had been a hell for me. Everyone is giving me a headache and I keep wishing to be vanished all of sudden into nothingness. That’s how stressful I am.
Okay, boys.
I really need new bass boosted headphones.
Okay. Let’s talk about boys.
I’m not going to talk about W today. I’m going to talk about the butler. Yes, you read it right. The butler. He’s back!
I don’t really talk about him here but let me spill the tea about this one specific butler.
So, he found me at Facebook. He sent me a text through messenger before I accepted his friend request. I accepted his request because he looked like a legit man. We have a lot of mutual friends and what makes things interesting was he called me my second half name instead of Mira. I thought maybe this is someone I know but apparently not. He then asked my phone number which I carelessly gave. He even asked for my IG handle where again, I carelessly shared.
I checked his IG posts. He looks… Rich. And love branded stuffs. Well, from my judgement he looks like a rich kid, and famous because he got like 2k+ followers and what the hell is he doing in my Whatsapp?
We texted a bit and he told me is doing butler for a living, at a local castle. I don’t know how much he is making but he looks rich. I almost thought he lives in the castle instead of as the worker. I am not materialistic but I can’t help to see if I can have a future with anyone I talk to.
It was April, a fasting month, a covid-19 month when dine-in wasn’t allowed. He asked to meet. He said things will be better if we meet because our text conversation is dry as Sahara Desert. This guy does not know how to make the conversation interesting, he bores me so much. But he insisted to meet. I entertained the idea until he came out creepy.
I told him I can only meet him after work. I work office hour while he works on shift. He said, if we have to meet after my working hour, how is he going to break his fast? Should he Sungkai in car with him, he asked.
“If time me puasa alang alang meet, kurang pahala karang if thold ur hand” - butler, 2020.
Of course, I freaked out!
WHAT DO YOU MEAN THOLD HAND.
Turn off ku boy kan jumpa if you this creepy.
I told him to do social distancing but he didn’t like the idea. He said I was not sincere in meeting him. But I told him, 1m is not that far and he be like: Hahah aweh still can hold hand
I mean, how should I feel safe being around this guy?
I won’t!
I even texted my cousin, because she was a mutual FB friend if she knew this guy. Apparently no, there are only FB friends, so… that’s mean he don’t really hit on every girl? But why me?
This guy is definitely a Fuck Boy.
I don’t really layan this guy, he kept wishing good morning and night to me but nothing makes me want to know him more. Especially after he was being a creep. All of sudden he said: Nice to know you. Take care.
GIVE UP IA BUII.
I don’t lose anything anyway so I was gladly leave the chat.
The next day, I realize he block and then unblock me on IG so that we weren’t following each other. It was making me crazy how he pulled out the stunt. Like, you don’t have to follow me in IG but let me stay as your follower. Why would you keep me away from your IG? So childish.
The last text was on May. I almost texted him again to ask what’s with the IG but I hold myself because this boy? ISN’T WORTH IT. Even my friends asked me to stay away from him because he clearly showed creep side of him. But the thing is with me, I sometime have this soft spot to the guys that are trying to hit on me. Stokholm syndrome kah apa ku ani.
2 months later.
He suddenly texts me again.
Crazy, I know.
Balum give up.
I FREAKING HATE THAT STICKER NOW.
I layan lah, cause why not?
I told him I thought he deleted my number already. Well, he hasn’t because I still saw his story.
He said no, he doesn’t easily hate on people, even though he always got ignored (by me).
I layan sajalah and of course, he still insisted to meet. I was amazed how he still thinks I’m single. We almost meet but on the day we plan to meet. I was super busy and I couldn’t make it. I had my period started on that day too and I didn’t feel good going out.
He was like: Can we meet and talk. Just for a short time.
I was like, sure (manasaja tah kau mau).
This guy ah. Sudah pun demanding, needy, penyamal, inda gentleman lah. Complete in one package, creepy! I told him to impress me but he kept telling to meet him. Like, I don’t think it’s worth it to meet him when I don’t even like him? Like, I don’t know what he’s trying to do. I asked where to meet, he couldn’t even decide a place? Like, boy? I thought you’re the one who want to do this meeting? Choose a place!
I told him I am at this place, hoping he would choose somewhere close to my workplace but he chose somewhere close to his house. Annoying lah, ia yang mau jumpa but why do I have to drive jauh-jauh.
And then he asked me:
Lady S said I was being harsh but it was my day 01 on period. I was super busy and he was being unclear, of course I appear evil and do I look like I care? Hell no.
We ended up not meeting that day and good thing we didn’t because the minute I reached home, I got hit by headache.
The next day, he didn’t text anything. I asked advice from my friends and all of them against him so I decided to not meet him. He’s not worth my time!
I told W about this guy and he told me don’t judge someone too early, he may not be a fuck boy but as soon as I told him the hold hand incident, he laughed and commented: pacah jua laki-laki ani.
He sent me that annoying sticker again, as a response to my story.
I ignore.
Then yesterday night I went to a sushi dinner date with Lady S. I took picture as if I was on date with a man when it’s just my cousin. I even put on the caption ‘Dinner Date’, specifically targeting him.
He took the bait.
And that’s the end of it.
I don’t see his Whatsapp profile picture anymore. I think he finally deleted my number.
Yes, I am that low. When I can tell him that I am not interested him like an adult, I chose to hurt him like that. Child’s play!