no year can be purely good or bad. this year just was.
there was a lot of change in my life this year, and i learned a lot of things, i think.
-i learned that whenever one thing changes, another thing falls into place
-and although you can convince yourself for a while, you can never really change your ways
-i always thought i was an emotionally strong person, but im not.
-despite changes in my surroundings, i will always always feel out of place.
-i have a hard time loosing people but often what i miss is my perception of them and their role in my life, and not the actual person.
-that when push comes to shove, i really do love to explore and be independent but i wish sometimes i could live on a couch and read
-that my self doubt has always held me back, and is my biggest enemy in a lot of ways... but there is no easy solution
-i learned that even i might settle down someday and find love. it just scares me because no matter when, i wont be ready.
-having a large group of half friends isnt everything. all you really need is yourself, and one person you can really trust and confide in (you are lucky if you have that)
-sometimes, you really do need those friends, and i saw that i dont know how to connect to them when i do
-and i met a lot of new people this year, every one of them different. i am seeing so many new kinds of people, and how everyone fits together as a whole, and how they are themselves and what they see. i suppose i am relearning a lot of things
and i learned that change is the only thing you can count on...
(so here is hoping for a better 2005)
-i learned that whenever one thing changes, another thing falls into place
-and although you can convince yourself for a while, you can never really change your ways
-i always thought i was an emotionally strong person, but im not.
-despite changes in my surroundings, i will always always feel out of place.
-i have a hard time loosing people but often what i miss is my perception of them and their role in my life, and not the actual person.
-that when push comes to shove, i really do love to explore and be independent but i wish sometimes i could live on a couch and read
-that my self doubt has always held me back, and is my biggest enemy in a lot of ways... but there is no easy solution
-i learned that even i might settle down someday and find love. it just scares me because no matter when, i wont be ready.
-having a large group of half friends isnt everything. all you really need is yourself, and one person you can really trust and confide in (you are lucky if you have that)
-sometimes, you really do need those friends, and i saw that i dont know how to connect to them when i do
-and i met a lot of new people this year, every one of them different. i am seeing so many new kinds of people, and how everyone fits together as a whole, and how they are themselves and what they see. i suppose i am relearning a lot of things
and i learned that change is the only thing you can count on...
(so here is hoping for a better 2005)