You lean a little to the left or the right but, You can only see who's on your side.
Right now I think Ima keep to myself and not talk to anyone for now. Hopefully all this shit blows over and I dont have to think about it.
On another note... Ive been talking to Matt again and Im hoping that we move up to Stratford so that I can see him alot again... that would be pretty kickass...
Last night Dad went on a rampage and made every1 go to bed at 10 cuz my little brother always makes loud noises right as he's dozzing off... and dad ran into my room and took something away from him i guess, and he rose his hand up and Jay Jay growled at him... dads like that dog doesnt fuckin growel at me! and kimberly (stepmom) is like well hes only protecting lou finally... and my dad said that if the dog isnt out of the house by tomorrow, then he'll shoot the dog, and he almost did last night cuz he pulled a gun out the closet and kimberly wouldnt move out of the doorway so he didnt. But he is getting out of control. So I went to bed at 10:00 and Lou wouldnt stop tlaking and I kept telling him to stfu... I finally passed out at 10:30 and woke up at 12 to my dad and stepmom screaming at each other mad loud...
I heard Kim sticking up for every1 and my dad saying that she could leave and take my little brother with her.. and she said something about all my dad ever thinks about it himself and hes like yea i do... and he said that he doesnt even care if me and sam even wanna live with him anymore... FUCKED UP... and Im just fuckin out of it today after hearing them fight for a half hour to an hour. My step mom made really good points to him tho and im proud of her for finally saying what she felt.. she said how he doesnt let any1 do anything, like meaning me and shea... an she said how for him shes been clean and sobber for 10 months... and he didnt care... hes so cold hearted and Im getting sick of it.. he always comes home in a bad mood and screams at EVERY1... Im thinking about living with mom again.. some ppl think thats a bad idea, but I know I wont have to pack 4 kids into a bedroom.. and I wont have to stay home all the time like a fuckin loser... Im begining to give up on everything now and I dont even care... Im giving up on my friedns in NY cuz its so hard cuz theyre so far... Im giving up on school... im giving up on my family life, I dont know whats wrong, but Its getting bad.
I feel like im falling into a state of depression... and this isnt good.
On another note... Ive been talking to Matt again and Im hoping that we move up to Stratford so that I can see him alot again... that would be pretty kickass...
Last night Dad went on a rampage and made every1 go to bed at 10 cuz my little brother always makes loud noises right as he's dozzing off... and dad ran into my room and took something away from him i guess, and he rose his hand up and Jay Jay growled at him... dads like that dog doesnt fuckin growel at me! and kimberly (stepmom) is like well hes only protecting lou finally... and my dad said that if the dog isnt out of the house by tomorrow, then he'll shoot the dog, and he almost did last night cuz he pulled a gun out the closet and kimberly wouldnt move out of the doorway so he didnt. But he is getting out of control. So I went to bed at 10:00 and Lou wouldnt stop tlaking and I kept telling him to stfu... I finally passed out at 10:30 and woke up at 12 to my dad and stepmom screaming at each other mad loud...
I heard Kim sticking up for every1 and my dad saying that she could leave and take my little brother with her.. and she said something about all my dad ever thinks about it himself and hes like yea i do... and he said that he doesnt even care if me and sam even wanna live with him anymore... FUCKED UP... and Im just fuckin out of it today after hearing them fight for a half hour to an hour. My step mom made really good points to him tho and im proud of her for finally saying what she felt.. she said how he doesnt let any1 do anything, like meaning me and shea... an she said how for him shes been clean and sobber for 10 months... and he didnt care... hes so cold hearted and Im getting sick of it.. he always comes home in a bad mood and screams at EVERY1... Im thinking about living with mom again.. some ppl think thats a bad idea, but I know I wont have to pack 4 kids into a bedroom.. and I wont have to stay home all the time like a fuckin loser... Im begining to give up on everything now and I dont even care... Im giving up on my friedns in NY cuz its so hard cuz theyre so far... Im giving up on school... im giving up on my family life, I dont know whats wrong, but Its getting bad.
I feel like im falling into a state of depression... and this isnt good.