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okay, for real now. this really is the last day i'm on the computer. things are better now. i go to therapy...it's okay. hopefully i'll learn to live without drugs. it's gonna be HARD!! i have really bad dreams about drugs sometimes... it sucks. but in my dreams i never actually do the drugs because i get random UA's. haha. which i really do. man i never knew how hard it is to pee with someone staring at your crotch. who the fuck would really want to do that for a job! my mom gets out of the halfway house around thanksgiving and then she's got to stay clean and find a place for us to live...THEN I WILL BE FREE! the thing that sucks though, is that she doesn't want to live in blaine because that's where all of our drug problems were. i love blaine to death. more than words can explain. SO many memories... and i don't know where we'll live...hopefully close to blaine. alrighty i'll stop. love you guys. BRI! CALL ASHLEY AND TELL HER HOW MUCH I LOVE HER. 221-7684 and ben! 757-9535 <333