the process
why is it that the things that are good for you in life, always seem to be harder to reach, or achieve?
it's harder to resist eating that powdered sugar donut, than to give in and scarf it down.
it's harder to do all 100 crunches, than it is to ignore the soreness and relax.
it's harder to read a book from cover to cover, than to find sparknotes online.
it's harder to stay dedicated in your studies, than it is to slack off.
it's harder to ignore your carnal urges, than it is to satisfy your sexual desires.
it's harder to say no to peer pressure, than it is to simply fit in.
it's harder to accept your faults, than it is to put the blame on others.
it's harder to look on the bright side, than it is to focus on the negatives.
it's harder to uplift someone, than it is to pick at their faults.
it's harder to spend time with God, than it is to get caught up in the world around you.
having chosen to live the life that challenges me is taking a toll on me, i guess. at least lately, i've been exhausted from striving to be the better person, from walking the straight and narrow path that will lead me to the goal i have mapped in my head. i guess i'm seeking short-term rewards for all the hard work i've been putting into my life, and lately have been reaping disappointment.
i understand that in the end, the process is what will define me. i mentioned today in sabbath school, aimed to the younger ones listening, that when a person goes through a long, drawn-out process to reach a goal, that it's that much more fulfilling once it's all over.
in order to grow, you need to leave your comfort zone. i felt i've grown a lot this year, which also means that i've never found solace within my comfort zone. i think right now, i just want to step back in.
in all honesty, i'm going through a cycle of misanthropy, of desiring to be alone, isolated from the world around me. "oh john, here you go again. here you go again, being all introspective, over-analytical, and dramatic." well, that's who i am: an introspective, over-analytical, dramatic guy.
although frustrating for those watching, that's what makes my life interesting.
it's harder to resist eating that powdered sugar donut, than to give in and scarf it down.
it's harder to do all 100 crunches, than it is to ignore the soreness and relax.
it's harder to read a book from cover to cover, than to find sparknotes online.
it's harder to stay dedicated in your studies, than it is to slack off.
it's harder to ignore your carnal urges, than it is to satisfy your sexual desires.
it's harder to say no to peer pressure, than it is to simply fit in.
it's harder to accept your faults, than it is to put the blame on others.
it's harder to look on the bright side, than it is to focus on the negatives.
it's harder to uplift someone, than it is to pick at their faults.
it's harder to spend time with God, than it is to get caught up in the world around you.
having chosen to live the life that challenges me is taking a toll on me, i guess. at least lately, i've been exhausted from striving to be the better person, from walking the straight and narrow path that will lead me to the goal i have mapped in my head. i guess i'm seeking short-term rewards for all the hard work i've been putting into my life, and lately have been reaping disappointment.
i understand that in the end, the process is what will define me. i mentioned today in sabbath school, aimed to the younger ones listening, that when a person goes through a long, drawn-out process to reach a goal, that it's that much more fulfilling once it's all over.
in order to grow, you need to leave your comfort zone. i felt i've grown a lot this year, which also means that i've never found solace within my comfort zone. i think right now, i just want to step back in.
in all honesty, i'm going through a cycle of misanthropy, of desiring to be alone, isolated from the world around me. "oh john, here you go again. here you go again, being all introspective, over-analytical, and dramatic." well, that's who i am: an introspective, over-analytical, dramatic guy.
although frustrating for those watching, that's what makes my life interesting.