the explosive personality...
i had a nice, long conversation with hazel on the phone... we killed her phone battery, so she had to use jon's to continue the conversation...
something that's really bugged me this week is when people waste my time... especially when people show up late to plans, for no reason...
joseph and i missed a movie b/c no one else showed up on time... we showed up an hour and a half early, anticipating a long line, since it was opening week... we watched the time fly by, and by the time the ticket line completely disappeared, we knew we were gonna miss it, so we had to meet up at another movie theater to watch the movie...
jason and i made the effort to go to practice on time, even arriving fifteen minutes early to set up, turn on the AC, and all that crap, to find out that everyone else was going to be almost an hour late... the first time, without a legitimate excuse... none at all... the second time, they failed to relay the message that practice was going to be an hour later (for a good reason this time)... so what, wait until we show up on time, before they let us know...? no one told junjun, and he was waiting there for a while... and it pissed off uncle stan, who dropped him off, and waited for us there, too...
and then, when the time actually comes, practice moves twice as slow for all the random chatting sessions or conversation going on, when it could've been avoided... and then people complain that it's late already... so why is it late, may i ask?
time is money...
i don't hate the people, i hate the "sin," as the famous saying goes...
it's just so tiring, when our family is known to make the extra effort to arrive early for things... and we don't live just five minutes away...
a wise man once said, "if you're on time, then you're late... you need to arrive early to be on time..."
why can't that just sink in with some people...? how hard is it to plan accordingly, or take the other party into consideration?
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to take this back to where i originally planned, after talking with hazel, i've realized that one of the best things to do is to look at how you've handled situations, how you act or react, and find out what your personality flaws are... and yeah, i know i have many...
but i've come to learn that one of my flaws is having an explosive personality...
i've been known to bottle up my feelings, then when it gets to the point that i can no longer contain it, i burst... and i've heard many people i know make the observation: close friends, important mentors, family...
after tuesday night, i actually called hazel, and found myself actually screaming at her, as a vent... and i was actually shaking b/c i was so mad... that last time i've done that was four years ago, at jonathan, for ditching our project group to "go on a date..."
good thing hazel understood... she hates it when people are late, and waste her time, too... she let me yell at her, b/c she knew i was mad...
a year ago, i'd probably tell you that i had the patience of a... well, something that has a lot of patience... but now, i don't think i can say the same... sure, when i hold my temper, i can mask like i'm not angry, but deep down inside, i'm burning up...
this is a scary thing, considering that i'm going into a profession where i shouldn't lose my temper... now i can see why doc and mr mohr had temper problems... i never thought i'd end up like them...
having a bad temper's not a good thing... it just hurts the people around you...
but at least i know i have one, right? that way, i can actually try to better myself...
it took me three years to get over my tendency to be bitter, save the one situation where i think it's justified...
i think i can get over this, right?
all it takes is a little self searching, to wonder what it is that makes me tick, or makes others unhappy, and try to fix it, right...?
i mean, i know i'm an antisocial loser, but one thing at a time, right?
i mean, nobody's perfect... everyone has that something...
something that's really bugged me this week is when people waste my time... especially when people show up late to plans, for no reason...
joseph and i missed a movie b/c no one else showed up on time... we showed up an hour and a half early, anticipating a long line, since it was opening week... we watched the time fly by, and by the time the ticket line completely disappeared, we knew we were gonna miss it, so we had to meet up at another movie theater to watch the movie...
jason and i made the effort to go to practice on time, even arriving fifteen minutes early to set up, turn on the AC, and all that crap, to find out that everyone else was going to be almost an hour late... the first time, without a legitimate excuse... none at all... the second time, they failed to relay the message that practice was going to be an hour later (for a good reason this time)... so what, wait until we show up on time, before they let us know...? no one told junjun, and he was waiting there for a while... and it pissed off uncle stan, who dropped him off, and waited for us there, too...
and then, when the time actually comes, practice moves twice as slow for all the random chatting sessions or conversation going on, when it could've been avoided... and then people complain that it's late already... so why is it late, may i ask?
time is money...
i don't hate the people, i hate the "sin," as the famous saying goes...
it's just so tiring, when our family is known to make the extra effort to arrive early for things... and we don't live just five minutes away...
a wise man once said, "if you're on time, then you're late... you need to arrive early to be on time..."
why can't that just sink in with some people...? how hard is it to plan accordingly, or take the other party into consideration?
- - - - - - -
to take this back to where i originally planned, after talking with hazel, i've realized that one of the best things to do is to look at how you've handled situations, how you act or react, and find out what your personality flaws are... and yeah, i know i have many...
but i've come to learn that one of my flaws is having an explosive personality...
i've been known to bottle up my feelings, then when it gets to the point that i can no longer contain it, i burst... and i've heard many people i know make the observation: close friends, important mentors, family...
after tuesday night, i actually called hazel, and found myself actually screaming at her, as a vent... and i was actually shaking b/c i was so mad... that last time i've done that was four years ago, at jonathan, for ditching our project group to "go on a date..."
good thing hazel understood... she hates it when people are late, and waste her time, too... she let me yell at her, b/c she knew i was mad...
a year ago, i'd probably tell you that i had the patience of a... well, something that has a lot of patience... but now, i don't think i can say the same... sure, when i hold my temper, i can mask like i'm not angry, but deep down inside, i'm burning up...
this is a scary thing, considering that i'm going into a profession where i shouldn't lose my temper... now i can see why doc and mr mohr had temper problems... i never thought i'd end up like them...
having a bad temper's not a good thing... it just hurts the people around you...
but at least i know i have one, right? that way, i can actually try to better myself...
it took me three years to get over my tendency to be bitter, save the one situation where i think it's justified...
i think i can get over this, right?
all it takes is a little self searching, to wonder what it is that makes me tick, or makes others unhappy, and try to fix it, right...?
i mean, i know i'm an antisocial loser, but one thing at a time, right?
i mean, nobody's perfect... everyone has that something...