stream of consciousness... (considerations on high school)
I haven't updated for a really long time.. I never felt the need to.. but lately, i read many thoughts about high school being over. Beside the fact that i still have about a month to go(and it will be the hardest month EVER), i realized i just can't wait to get out. Yes, during these 5 years many things have changed, I changed, but i wouldn't go back for a million dollars.
I know I'll stay friends with all the ones that matter. I know University will finally be impartial and that teachers won't have time to hate me there. I know that i will get out of high school with a lower grade than the one I would have gotten if I went to another school, but i couldn't care less. I know i will have MY TIME to plan everything I want to do. I know this summer will be so sweet and long!!! sometimes I feel a little guilty for not being sad to leave high school, but I am really not. 5 years are way too long..and I even spent a year in another place. wow.. 5 years and we won't even get a graduation. I'll get there, to the last part of my finals, the oral one, they will hopefully ask me not too many things i don't know, and then they'll tell me: you're done you can go for ever. and that will be an amazing feeling: that will be better than 100 graduations. I will finally feel free. I don't think you can understand what i'm saying: i was so sad to leave north. But the thought that in a month i will be out of my italian school is the only thought that keeps me going. It's impossible for me not to compare my american and my italian high school. I learned so many things thanks to both of them. But which ones will really help me in life? we'll see.. i have quite the feeling that my italian school taught me so many beautiful and useless things. So many boring and insane studies about how people considered life in literature and philosophy. I feel like i never have time to actually live my own life and make my own considerations about it. In America i had the time. Even if i wouldn't probably have this high level culture, right now I'd choose american school because it taught me how to work with people and not individually, it let me choose the classes i liked, it taught me how to feel part of a group of people that had my same passion, it taught me not to be afraid to go on stage, it let me have time to feel free and not ALWAYS oppressed by something to catch up with. I'm very glad i had the opportunity to go to 2 different kind of high schools. But i wish this one was over NOW.
I know I'll stay friends with all the ones that matter. I know University will finally be impartial and that teachers won't have time to hate me there. I know that i will get out of high school with a lower grade than the one I would have gotten if I went to another school, but i couldn't care less. I know i will have MY TIME to plan everything I want to do. I know this summer will be so sweet and long!!! sometimes I feel a little guilty for not being sad to leave high school, but I am really not. 5 years are way too long..and I even spent a year in another place. wow.. 5 years and we won't even get a graduation. I'll get there, to the last part of my finals, the oral one, they will hopefully ask me not too many things i don't know, and then they'll tell me: you're done you can go for ever. and that will be an amazing feeling: that will be better than 100 graduations. I will finally feel free. I don't think you can understand what i'm saying: i was so sad to leave north. But the thought that in a month i will be out of my italian school is the only thought that keeps me going. It's impossible for me not to compare my american and my italian high school. I learned so many things thanks to both of them. But which ones will really help me in life? we'll see.. i have quite the feeling that my italian school taught me so many beautiful and useless things. So many boring and insane studies about how people considered life in literature and philosophy. I feel like i never have time to actually live my own life and make my own considerations about it. In America i had the time. Even if i wouldn't probably have this high level culture, right now I'd choose american school because it taught me how to work with people and not individually, it let me choose the classes i liked, it taught me how to feel part of a group of people that had my same passion, it taught me not to be afraid to go on stage, it let me have time to feel free and not ALWAYS oppressed by something to catch up with. I'm very glad i had the opportunity to go to 2 different kind of high schools. But i wish this one was over NOW.