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I feel as if the person I'm becoming is worse than the person I was before. Sure, I'm less naive but I've become so careless and independent. It's just that I've been less focused on caring about how I look and more so on expanding my abilities. People don't see that though. They don't care if I can draw well or if I can carry a conversation or even that I'm able to take care of a baby. It makes me feel like I can never be valid unless I'm pretty and skinny. What's the point of even trying anymore.