Life
i have alot of mixed feelings right now, and its really hard for me to show any emotion. Ive cried to much over this relationship and i just cant do it anymore. Trust me i was really upset when we first broke up then i went home and sorted out my feelings and decided that this was for the best.
it sucks because I feel like ive lost one of my best friends over this, but we were over before we even broke up, we didnt have sex for how long? 6 months and before that like 2. I love the feeling of being next to you and how we had our own little family with our dogs and we came home we cooked, cleaned, watched tv and went to bed together every night, but deep down neither one of us were happy. we just weren't right for each other. We had the best friend part down but i wish we would of just left it at that, never started a relationship.
you consumed my life, would get mad if i did anything ex. shopping with my own money, went out and got drunk with my friends, i had to lie to you to go hang out with sara between shifts and the sad thing is i let you, i walked on eggshells to make you happy and then one day i just got fed up and figured out that you were the reason for my depression and since we've been apart i feel like myself once again. i wish you knew the real me and i didn't have to be someone else around you. I know you think im such a horrible person right now, but i promise you, this is for the best and one day you will find someone who you love for who they are, not who you want them to be.
it sucks because I feel like ive lost one of my best friends over this, but we were over before we even broke up, we didnt have sex for how long? 6 months and before that like 2. I love the feeling of being next to you and how we had our own little family with our dogs and we came home we cooked, cleaned, watched tv and went to bed together every night, but deep down neither one of us were happy. we just weren't right for each other. We had the best friend part down but i wish we would of just left it at that, never started a relationship.
you consumed my life, would get mad if i did anything ex. shopping with my own money, went out and got drunk with my friends, i had to lie to you to go hang out with sara between shifts and the sad thing is i let you, i walked on eggshells to make you happy and then one day i just got fed up and figured out that you were the reason for my depression and since we've been apart i feel like myself once again. i wish you knew the real me and i didn't have to be someone else around you. I know you think im such a horrible person right now, but i promise you, this is for the best and one day you will find someone who you love for who they are, not who you want them to be.