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I don't even remember the last time I posted here. Yesterday I was browsing old entries, and I liked reading about myself. It's good to keep a journal, so I'm gonna try, dammit!
Pepper turned 2 about a month ago. She's crazy smart, and a really good kid. She can be obnoxious, but all kids are ;)
The weather is killing me. I hate the heat anyway, and I've done my best not to bitch about it this summer, but when we got a cold front last weekend, I was so relieved. Cardigans! Jackets! Scarves! Stockings! Then Monday came, and it was hot again. HOT. Like, 90 degrees outside and humid! ARGH! We went to the park today and I was miserable. I just seriously hate the outdoors anyway. Bugs, allergens, wind. But to add heat and humidity on top of that? *sigh*
Anyway, as far as the fitness side goes, it goes! I'm waffling between 156-160 now, with my lowest being 155. I'm okay with that. I'd like to get into the 140s, but no rush. It's actually really frustrating because I have all these people around me suddenly VERY interested in fitness. They do a bootcamp and Zumba, and they started a kickball league and people are bugging me to come, and they have this whole camaraderie thing going and I just .. I just kind of hate it. I've been doing this for years now. It's part of who I am, it's integral. I have a system and I don't need to join your stupid kickball league to prove anything. And in 6 months when you're back to being sedentary, I'll still be out there kicking my own ass! I just hate it, I need friends who are fitness nuts like me, who do it because we love it and it's a hobby. Not people who think it's 'fun for now' but will get bored of it or something. I'm awfully cynical about it, but whatever.
A friend of mine is a trainer, owner of a gym and has done competitions. She's going to help me get started on body building. I've been working out to lose weight for a long time, so I wanted to switch it up. The first thing she explained is that body building is BORING. Like, 20 sets of 3-4 exercises a session. DAMN. But I'm willing to try it, haha. Plus I'll have Zumba in between. I like Amanda because she's smart and she respects me. She knows what I've gone through, and knows I work my ass off. I don't feel like I have to prove anything to her. I wish we were more alike, because she'd an awesome bestie!
Speaking of besties, mine is in Cali and it SUCKS. I have so few friends out here, and none that I hold above all others. I want someone who wants to hang out with me as much as I want to hang out with them. I get stir crazy being at home all the time, but I never have anyone to do something with! White girl problems.
Jeez what else. Well in January the bestie and I are going to Disneyland for a best friend's vacation - SO DAMN EXCITED. I haven't had a vacation in YEARS. We're doing the Tinkerbell 5k while we're there. I can't wait!!! I've been saving up for it. I'm supposed to do a mud run at the end of October, but I'm dubious. I sprained my ankle pretty bad about 2 months ago or so, and I haven't really been able to run yet. And even if I could run, we're talking trail running and obstacles. BUT I already paid and I'd hate to let it go to waste. I'm consider doing it and just walking/running the easy parts, and skipping whatever obstacles I need to. It'll still be fun! But I notoriously push myself harder than I should sometimes and I'm worried I'll re-injure myself. MORE WHITE GIRL PROBLEMS.
Anyway that's what's going on right now, anyway. I'm gonna try to keep up with this. And I need to update my photos and stats on here!
Pepper turned 2 about a month ago. She's crazy smart, and a really good kid. She can be obnoxious, but all kids are ;)
The weather is killing me. I hate the heat anyway, and I've done my best not to bitch about it this summer, but when we got a cold front last weekend, I was so relieved. Cardigans! Jackets! Scarves! Stockings! Then Monday came, and it was hot again. HOT. Like, 90 degrees outside and humid! ARGH! We went to the park today and I was miserable. I just seriously hate the outdoors anyway. Bugs, allergens, wind. But to add heat and humidity on top of that? *sigh*
Anyway, as far as the fitness side goes, it goes! I'm waffling between 156-160 now, with my lowest being 155. I'm okay with that. I'd like to get into the 140s, but no rush. It's actually really frustrating because I have all these people around me suddenly VERY interested in fitness. They do a bootcamp and Zumba, and they started a kickball league and people are bugging me to come, and they have this whole camaraderie thing going and I just .. I just kind of hate it. I've been doing this for years now. It's part of who I am, it's integral. I have a system and I don't need to join your stupid kickball league to prove anything. And in 6 months when you're back to being sedentary, I'll still be out there kicking my own ass! I just hate it, I need friends who are fitness nuts like me, who do it because we love it and it's a hobby. Not people who think it's 'fun for now' but will get bored of it or something. I'm awfully cynical about it, but whatever.
A friend of mine is a trainer, owner of a gym and has done competitions. She's going to help me get started on body building. I've been working out to lose weight for a long time, so I wanted to switch it up. The first thing she explained is that body building is BORING. Like, 20 sets of 3-4 exercises a session. DAMN. But I'm willing to try it, haha. Plus I'll have Zumba in between. I like Amanda because she's smart and she respects me. She knows what I've gone through, and knows I work my ass off. I don't feel like I have to prove anything to her. I wish we were more alike, because she'd an awesome bestie!
Speaking of besties, mine is in Cali and it SUCKS. I have so few friends out here, and none that I hold above all others. I want someone who wants to hang out with me as much as I want to hang out with them. I get stir crazy being at home all the time, but I never have anyone to do something with! White girl problems.
Jeez what else. Well in January the bestie and I are going to Disneyland for a best friend's vacation - SO DAMN EXCITED. I haven't had a vacation in YEARS. We're doing the Tinkerbell 5k while we're there. I can't wait!!! I've been saving up for it. I'm supposed to do a mud run at the end of October, but I'm dubious. I sprained my ankle pretty bad about 2 months ago or so, and I haven't really been able to run yet. And even if I could run, we're talking trail running and obstacles. BUT I already paid and I'd hate to let it go to waste. I'm consider doing it and just walking/running the easy parts, and skipping whatever obstacles I need to. It'll still be fun! But I notoriously push myself harder than I should sometimes and I'm worried I'll re-injure myself. MORE WHITE GIRL PROBLEMS.
Anyway that's what's going on right now, anyway. I'm gonna try to keep up with this. And I need to update my photos and stats on here!