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what a weird week.
christmas eve i went to the constantine christmas.
james came.
my lovely cousin sliced his hand open and had to go to the hospital.
it was actually kind of funny.
i got a puzzle. two book lights. ten dollars. and a pen that doesnt work.
it doesnt matter though.
christmas i got up at nine but had to wait until like 11 to open presents.
marcie called me to tell me about andrew.
i was just totally shocked and in denial. i didnt know how to react.
then james came over.
we opened presents.
my brother/sisterinlaw got me a car safety kit. and a flashlight that does about a billion things. and a twenty questions thing.
my parents got me a remote car starter! which is pretty sweet. even though i've only driven my car twice since christmas so i havent really used it.
and i got some other small things.
James got me DDR for my xbox.
i cant play it but whatever, its great.
then we went to his family christmas party
his family gave me money! it was really nice.
we ate and hung out and then went home.
i came home and talked to my mom until like two in the morning.
yesterday i worked.
today i got called in to work.
and then i went to the viewing with marcie.
i've never been to a funeral home or a funeral or a viewing. or anything like that.
and i'm not sure i've ever said more than five words to andrew.
but it was really... indescribable.
its the weirdest thing in the world to see someone. a person. a person you've seen a billion times acting crazy and hilarious. but they arent really there.
it wasnt really him.
it was almost as if at any second he'd wake up.
i didnt actually go up to the casket because i know i would have cried. a lot.
i dont handle death very well.
christmas eve i went to the constantine christmas.
james came.
my lovely cousin sliced his hand open and had to go to the hospital.
it was actually kind of funny.
i got a puzzle. two book lights. ten dollars. and a pen that doesnt work.
it doesnt matter though.
christmas i got up at nine but had to wait until like 11 to open presents.
marcie called me to tell me about andrew.
i was just totally shocked and in denial. i didnt know how to react.
then james came over.
we opened presents.
my brother/sisterinlaw got me a car safety kit. and a flashlight that does about a billion things. and a twenty questions thing.
my parents got me a remote car starter! which is pretty sweet. even though i've only driven my car twice since christmas so i havent really used it.
and i got some other small things.
James got me DDR for my xbox.
i cant play it but whatever, its great.
then we went to his family christmas party
his family gave me money! it was really nice.
we ate and hung out and then went home.
i came home and talked to my mom until like two in the morning.
yesterday i worked.
today i got called in to work.
and then i went to the viewing with marcie.
i've never been to a funeral home or a funeral or a viewing. or anything like that.
and i'm not sure i've ever said more than five words to andrew.
but it was really... indescribable.
its the weirdest thing in the world to see someone. a person. a person you've seen a billion times acting crazy and hilarious. but they arent really there.
it wasnt really him.
it was almost as if at any second he'd wake up.
i didnt actually go up to the casket because i know i would have cried. a lot.
i dont handle death very well.