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I really want to start working...
like really bad...
i want to just do something, and not just do nothing.
I want to get my mind clear, and work... to be able to occupy my mind with something else rather then life.
I really want to work!
Call me crazy,
I enjoy working...
I miss working at running camp as a junior counselor... It was so much fun, maybe tough, a lot of work consisting of putting people a year younger/older/same age to go to bed... ,but then I got to hang out with other workers, having fun, smores, just making sure i am back at 5am to wake everyone up om my floor in the morning, and all of them to leave on time so they won't get in trouble and have to do push ups. I enjoyed, well maybe not cleaning up, and running behind, and pointing, and having the responsibility of stabbing someone in the leg if they got stung by a bee(which that part made me nervous), but i enjoyed leading the morning runs, and working with my floor...they made me happy telling me I was the best counselor there, just working made me feel happy.
This is why I'm trying to continue to run,... I want to be a coach, I've wanted to be a coach since 11th grade. I wanted to be a coach since I was captain/pt instructor in 11th grade. I told my coach in 12th that nothing would mean more to me then being this. I feel so short on my dreams now...I don't think I'll ever become a coach now. I don't live up to those hopes anymore...
I guess, I just miss these dreams...
like really bad...
i want to just do something, and not just do nothing.
I want to get my mind clear, and work... to be able to occupy my mind with something else rather then life.
I really want to work!
Call me crazy,
I enjoy working...
I miss working at running camp as a junior counselor... It was so much fun, maybe tough, a lot of work consisting of putting people a year younger/older/same age to go to bed... ,but then I got to hang out with other workers, having fun, smores, just making sure i am back at 5am to wake everyone up om my floor in the morning, and all of them to leave on time so they won't get in trouble and have to do push ups. I enjoyed, well maybe not cleaning up, and running behind, and pointing, and having the responsibility of stabbing someone in the leg if they got stung by a bee(which that part made me nervous), but i enjoyed leading the morning runs, and working with my floor...they made me happy telling me I was the best counselor there, just working made me feel happy.
This is why I'm trying to continue to run,... I want to be a coach, I've wanted to be a coach since 11th grade. I wanted to be a coach since I was captain/pt instructor in 11th grade. I told my coach in 12th that nothing would mean more to me then being this. I feel so short on my dreams now...I don't think I'll ever become a coach now. I don't live up to those hopes anymore...
I guess, I just miss these dreams...