What A Difference a week makes.
Well I haven't really had time to update since Conor and Kait were here. Hallowgreens was a bit shit, but the party in my room afterwards def. kicked ass. Ciaran spent the night on Sunday (he's one of the posse and we both really liked each other) nothing happened at all just spooning , not even a kiss. I wanted to confirm that he was over Lizzie, I asked him several times and he just said that I worry to much (which I do, so I dropped it). Ciaran spent the night on Monday after are epic Halloween day celebration, which I would talk about but I am sworn to secrecy, but know it was fabulous and go down in history as the best Halloween Monday ever. Waking up next to somebody , is probably one of the best feelings ever. I have never really experienced it before this week. The kiss good bye before class. Everything felt kind of like...innocent perfection. Talking, joking, actually watching movies with him was good times. On Wednesday, Jen Payne had us over to the house she was watching, it was Jen, Mattipants, Ciaran, Laura and me. It was an amazing night, completely what the doctor ordered (sexy jacuzzi time and all). I hadn't been that happy as I was Monday and Wednesday night. Last night however, I was stood up for Mary Jane (if you know what I mean). I had a study date with Ciaran at 8, I waited and waited in my room, I missed the concert all my friends went to , and he never showed. Come 10 pm here he comes...high as bawls, he decided to go celebrate his friends' good news by smoking tons of weed, and he didn't bother telling me that he was going or that he wouldn't be there. So , this brought back bad flash backs to a certain other someone and I was extremely upset all that night. Alec demanded that I talk to him about it and I just ended up crying and crying until I woke up this morning. Yeah that's right bitches I cried myself to sleep. Then today I called Ciaran out on it. He was very appoligetic, but I also wanted to address another issue of if he was ready for another relationship this soon after being fucked over by Lizzie. Yet I didn't get the chance...he beat me to the punch. He said he really liked hanging out with me, and these past few days of just hanging out of have been some of the best since he started college etc. I think you know where this is going. So yeah yet another ex-lover to add to the friends list. But, you know... he did it in the best way possible...save the fact that I was crying at the upper deck which was humiliating. it wasn't that the best time I've had here was over...it was mostly that this keeps happening to me, over and over. I guess anything more then 6 days is too much to ask..heaven forbid a full week. Laura says that there's hope for us , just give him time , but I don't feel like waiting around. I like(d) him a lot ...I have never felt more comfortable with somebody. There was something there... but I am glad I was such a short rebound, at least it didn't drag on hopelessly. So yeah... the best and worst week all rolled into one.