Whatever
Yeah, so I have a myspace but I would rather write shit in here. I'm at Mom's work right now in Hilo. I'm incredibly sad because my birthdays comin up in 4 days, and my boyfriend says he's going to come visit but I highly doubt its actually gonna happen. He keeps doing this shit where he says he'll call me, but he doesn't. I stopped counting how many times he's done it to me. I love him, but he needs to stop treating me this way. It just makes me even more sad that I don't know anyone here, and I really miss Berkeley(or the BA in general). That bitch Janey still has 2 of my shirts even though I asked for them back like a hundred times. Dad said he'd try to get them back for me, but thats probably not going to happen either. I should've got that little pipe that I got her for her birthday back from here before I left, even though I doubt she would've given it to me. Fuck. Well I can tell Im not going to have a good sweet 16, I mean, it will be nice just to go out to dinner or something with Mom and Derek, but what I really want is to spend it with my baby. God, just thinking about it makes me wanna cry. Why do I feel so pessimistic? This sucks. Well after Mom's done here we're gonna go to the library cuz I need books and then we're gonna go get pedicures and hopefully she'll let me get some acrylics. Maybe the reason I cried so much when I had to say goodbye to Gary was because deep down I thought that I might never see him again. I really hope its just a feeling, and it won't actually happen. I'm starting at Pahoa High on the 24th, so hopefully I'll survive my second Hawaiian school. Ok, well I'm over this. Peace. -Claire