TEQUIELA....IT MAKES U HAPPY AND U CANT BEAT HAPPINESS

[hello_mellow]

feeling pretty mashed right now, been pubbign it up in hertfore with aimee and the crew, katire wicked had a long discussion with her about why shrooms are better thzan fuck ing crack! why the fuck doewsn she do crack?!? aimme i love you!!! im soory id didint get to tgslk to yiou more but i love, u!!! shit is thi s turning into a\ drunkin rant???\

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[captain_insane]

I love you Kate! I feel like utter shite right now. So fucking hungover. I saw Jay, spoke to him... Mike got upset. What am I doing? I don't like Jay do I? or do I? I don't know.

[hello_mellow]

you like that jay likes you, and you like that he means keeping your options open because you dont want to get too serious with mike yet, but you shouldnt bother with jay and i think you know that.
p.s.i hate hangovers

[captain_insane]

yeh, I shouldn't bother with jay, but i like the way he makes me feel like i'm the only person in the room. The eye contact was intense and I liked it. Mike going off like that last night put me off... he seems too sensitive and i'm not the gentle type... Jay seems to have more going for him than Mike, he has a job, he has a car, he has a flat. Hes more exciting. I don't know what to do, I told Jay to pick me up from work today and I don't know what to do if he turns up. Or if he tries to call. ARGH!

[hello_mellow]

well who would you rather be the girlfriend of? an ex con or a drugdealer? i actually think you can do better than both of them, mikes cool but he doesnt seem like your type,
1.he's sensitive,
2.he's quiet (ish) and
3.he's a stoner so you know you're never going to be the centre of his universe, drugs will just blur his focus.

jay seemed alright too but i reckon theres more to him than meets the eye, i reckon the constant phone calls, that other girl, and his kids are just the tip of the ice burg.

sorry this post doesnt really help in decision making but its important to think about. Then again i really prefer the follow you heart thing rather than using your head, i spose its which relationship means more to you...

[captain_insane]

hmm, I see what you mean. I know what you're saying about Jay, and I think hes a complete player and I think hes really skilled in it. He said stuff about how I wasn't answering his calls so he wasn't going to turn down girls throwing themselves at him and... the blonde girl was his ex-girlfriend and he wasn't over her but is now and that he thinks i'm special, he wouldn't have kept calling me if he wanted someone else... and he said it all looking into my eyes, he said if he was lying I could have been able to tell. I just think hes had practise. I know i'd never be able to trust him but I know he'd treat me better than Mike does. He'd make me feel really special. I care about Mike though... but I know it can only go so far with him. I need to seriously think about my next move, I usually go on instinct but this ones tricky.