ouch my knee hurts.
I don't know what to do with myself. I'd like to be over it, not having every little thing bother me, but I'm not. I just can't control myself. I'd love to just indulge in what I have, but I'm too afraid that I'll be let down again. I'm always told not to be afraid, but I am... and it's an innocent emotion.
You can keep breathing, I only fall when you are near me, incomplete; I only talk when you can hear me, keep dreaming, can't wake up until I'm sleeping, lost on me; close to something i'll never be. If I just stay here, close my eyes can you still see me? obsolete; very nearly something to see, still see me, I cant wake up for sleeping, incomplete; very nearly something to me, see me, there's a punishment needed, obsolete; very nearly something to be. you can keep trying, drown in sleep to be flying, see for miles; something that i wanted to be, I can't wake this dream, prototyping ends up has been, incomplete; the consequence of something to be.
These Spring days are lasting way too long... I would kill to have something, someone here with me. Instead I'm alone as usual. Everyone around me is so busy, so caught up with their own lives. I guess I'm just jealous that they have them.
The bbq didn't go as expected. I admit, I was a little dissapointed... just because I had some unwelcomed "family" if you can even call them that. But the game of bball was fun. *jumps, shoots, scores, picks up glasses* haha. I really enjoyed that part.
Paddock plz.
ps- can't wait till memorial weekend.
pss- I am feeling down. I do every mother's day. I think you know why.