Finalment
So I finally saw Brokeback Mountain last night. I cried, I laughed and got some major boners. Both Heath and Jake are never (in my opinion) hot independently, but together it was sexy. The story is indicative of times that are just slightly different than now. It told me that, while love is really strong, it does not conquer all... or something like that.
I think I cried mostly because Heath (Ennis) totally appears to die alone and miserable. When I came out to my mother, she was most upset because she didn't want me to die with no one to love, or more importantly, no one to love me.... Perhaps I should consider more seriously the offer of being a boyfriend to Kris.
It's not that I don't like him. I just am scared of relationships right now. I know I should embrace the chance, but I guess I have learned that I can't trust myself when it comes to love. I have made many bad decisions when it comes to that subject and I just don't want to get hurt again. Not to mention, we are both Virgo's and this could be the relationship that kills me because of some of the bad boyfriend traits we both seem to have. I guess the best thing to do would be to live one day at a time and see where it goes from here...
I think I cried mostly because Heath (Ennis) totally appears to die alone and miserable. When I came out to my mother, she was most upset because she didn't want me to die with no one to love, or more importantly, no one to love me.... Perhaps I should consider more seriously the offer of being a boyfriend to Kris.
It's not that I don't like him. I just am scared of relationships right now. I know I should embrace the chance, but I guess I have learned that I can't trust myself when it comes to love. I have made many bad decisions when it comes to that subject and I just don't want to get hurt again. Not to mention, we are both Virgo's and this could be the relationship that kills me because of some of the bad boyfriend traits we both seem to have. I guess the best thing to do would be to live one day at a time and see where it goes from here...